finally settled on Dr. Andrew Hampshire, an unassuming family man of my exact age, whose easy laugh struck me as an anomaly for someone in his line of work.
Dr. Hampshire was warm and instantly likable, even when he was the bearer of bad news. And, most impressive to Brad and me, he was a dead ringerâboth physically and temperamentallyâfor the best-friend character, Wilson, on the medical drama House (who, strangely enough, also happens to be an oncologist). Brad and I loved that show, so it was a no-brainer.
In addition to reminding us of one of our favorite TV doctors, Dr. Hampshire was ridiculously knowledgeable about cancer, and particularly about this newly discovered villain on the scene, triple negative breast cancer. Heâd read all the latest studies and been to the latest triple-negative summits (facts we discovered when Brad, whoâd
initially been wary of Dr. Hampshireâs youth, interrogated him in a manner befitting an episode of Law & Order).
And, best of all, Dr. Hampshire, who much later insisted we call him Andy, understood our complicated sense of humor (i.e., that it was Bradâs job to make jokes and mine to laugh at them). Indeed, despite the serious context of most of our discussions with Dr. Hampshire, visits with him inevitably devolved into chortles of laughter on all sides.
But at my first appointment, as Brad and I searched for a doctor who could turn our world right side up again, we had not yet eased into the comfort of our cancer-comedy routine. No, at our first oncology appointment, Dr. Hampshire was warm but all business, matter-of-factly detailing the chemotherapy I would endure over the course of the next several months.
âWe have to hit the cancer with the strongest chemo drugs available because itâs so aggressive,â he explained.
âBring it on,â I told him, full of false bravado. And, handing him a picture of the girls, I added, âHereâs why I need to get better. Iâll do whatever it takes.â
Dr. Hampshire looked at the photoâI mean, he really looked at itâand nodded. He had a wife and three young kids of his own. His daughterâs poem about a nature hike with her heroic dad was hanging on the wall behind his head, I noticed.
âIf you were my wife,â Dr. Hampshire said, and he looked right into my eyes, âIâd recommend this exact chemo regimen. Itâs best to do everything in your power against this thing now, so you never second-guess yourself later.â
My life was in this manâs hands. And he would care for me as if I were his own beloved wife.
Dr. Hampshire shifted his gaze to Brad, who nodded.
Brad trusted him. An understanding had passed between them.
Weâd found our man.
Brad handed Dr. Hampshire a copy of my album. âAnd thereâs also this.â His voice quavered, just a little bit. âShe wrote all the songs.â Brad looked over at me, his face awash in tenderness and pride.
Dr. Hampshire scrutinized the CD cover, looking surprised. âSo, youâre a rock star?â he asked me, grinning.
âWell, no, not really.â Iâm pretty sure I batted my eyelashes shamelessly at him. âBut when this is all over, Iâm going over to England to film a music video!â I sounded a little bit maniacal, even to myself.
Dr. Hampshire was gracious. âLaura,â he said, a fountain of reassurance, âyouâre going to film that music video. Youâre going to be just fine.â
I clenched my jaw. Damn straight.
Thank you, Dr. Hampshire.
Chapter 13
Newlyweds Brad and Laura Roppé sat side by side on the first day of Constitutional Law class. The professor looked down at his class list, taking roll in alphabetical order:
âBradley . . . Rope?â
âRo- pay,â Brad corrected. âHere.â
The professor smiled at Brad and then looked down at his list, searching for the next name. âLaura . . .