maybe,â I tell him, but even that I canât say with conviction. Itâs just my default response.
âPlaying it close to the vest,â Fuller says. He says it like weâre conspiring on something. Then he nods in approval, like heâs been down that road before.
âIâm just telling you how it is,â I say. âIâm not trying to hold back some secret.â
âOh, I hear you.â But he has that look like he knows I mean something else. Whatever. Let him think what he wants to think. âBut if you need to hash it out with someone,â he says, âIâm here.â On that Iâve got to fight back the urge to roll my eyes. Itâs like he wants to sound like a pathetic guidance counselor. He must read my thoughts because he puts his fork down and bugs his eyes. âWhat? Whatâd I say?â
I shake my head. âNothing, man. Just take it easy. Itâs cool.â But when I look past him, now Iâm the one bugging. What I see up at the front is the very last thing Iâd expect late-night at a grimy place like Sure Burger: Jasmine Winters, a stack of books clutched under her arm. Her eyes look a little bleary, and sheâs got her hair bunched up under a baseball cap, but she still looks good .
I donât want to just rush up on her. But Fuller sees me looking and wheels around so hard that his chair scrapes on the floor. Jasmine turns, sees us gawking. She smiles and shrugs her shoulders. âHey, Derrick,â she says. âWhat can I say? I needed to re-fuel.â
I figured Jasmine would head downtown, hit up some dimly lit coffee shop, instead of cracking her books next to a pile of chili-cheese fries.
âCome sit with us,â Fuller blurts before I can respond. Makes me cringe. If the guy had any subtlety, heâd wait to see what Jasmine wanted. Or, even better, hit the pavement so she and I could kick it alone. But that doesnât seem to bother Jasmineâshe jumps at the offer.
She comes over and slings her stack of books down to the floor. I know she came here with the intention of more studies, but she thuds those things down like they weigh five-hundred pounds each. Thereâs an ACT prep book, a thick novel for her English class, and then a little pamphlet. Itâs got pictures of kids of all races, their eyes eager, all of them looking forward like theyâre listening to some lecture. Itâs got the IUPUI logo on it, but I know Jasmine hasnât studied herself crazy for four years to go there. Jasmine catches me looking at it. She kicks the novel over to cover the pamphlet.
âHeard you won tonight,â she says.
âAh, we put it down ,â Fuller says. âDropped Warren Central.â If I didnât know better, Iâd swear Fuller was trying to act the big man for Jasmine. Crazy move. She might not be my girl, but sheâs not exactly nothing to me.
âWell, thatâs good, I guess,â she says, a little ice in her voice. Fuller sits back, realizing just how unimpressed Jasmine Winters is by a high school basketball game.
Fuller checks his phone. Itâs probably just a way of pretending like he doesnât care that Jasmine dogged him out, but then he purses his lips. âThree missed calls from Mom,â he says. âI better bolt.â
He wads his napkins and wrappers on his tray and then hits it, giving me a clumsy fist bump across his tray before he leaves. That leaves me and Jasmine. For a few seconds we stare at each other in awkward silence. It gets broken by a guy calling her order number out, so Jasmine stands to go get it. As soon as she walks away, I kick myself for not having better mannersâI should have got it for her. But before that thoughtâs even done, I do something else rude. I toe that top booka couple times until I can get a good look at the pamphlet she brought in. Itâs from IUPUI all right, and itâs got some