and slams Agnesâs pancakes and my burger onto the table. The noise is jarring. Agnes glares at the waitress, who has orange hair and Tammy Faye eyelashes, but the woman is oblivious.
âCountry bumpkins,â Agnes mutters with a sigh.
I take a huge bite of my burger and watch Agnes pick at the edges of her pancakes.
She puts down her fork. âRemember when Maddy ran out of the room and I went to look for her?â
âYeah,â I say, my mouth full, âbut I donât remember anything after that.â
âWell, I searched the whole dorm but couldnât find her anywhere, so I decided to take the car and drive around campus. Thatâs when I realized my car key was missing and I just knew Maddy had taken it. When I got to the car, there she was, sitting in the driverâs seat, ready to drive off to God-knows-where. I was lucky to have found her in time. Who knows what she wouldâve done?
âSo we came back to the room. By that time you had passed out. I thought of leaving you a note, but we were in a hurry, and, besides, I wasnât sure where we were going. Maddy was delirious and I was getting panicked myself, so I snatched the fawn and we got in the car and drove and drove until we ended up in Vermont. We stayed at an inn overlooking a small lake. The surroundings were good for Maddy. Almost immediately she went back to her normal self. Having the fawn there also seemed to help. Otherwise I wouldâve let the poor thing go. Iâm not fond of that animal at allâthe mess and the awful smellsâbut at least itâs quiet. Iâd go nuts if I had to listen to it yap all the time.â
âMe too,â I say, nodding. I take a bite of my pickle and look at Agnes. âSo then what happened?â
âThings were fine until about the fourth day, when Maddy became hysterical again. She started coming up with all sorts of nutty ideas. She composed a list of all the things she wanted to do before she died.â
âLike what?â I lick my fingers.
âThere was something about skydiving and meeting the Dalai Lama.â Agnes pauses. âAnd losing her virginity,â she says, looking flustered.
âTo Sebastian?â
âTo anyone. She wanted to find a random Vermonter and take him back to our room.â
I cringe and semi-lose my appetite. Sure, I could see myself doing something like thatâbut Maddy the virgin?
âIt didnât happen,â says Agnes. âI wasnât going to let it happen. Thatâs why we left Vermont. Youâre lucky you werenât there. Maddy was such a wreck. She kept rambling about suicide and the afterlife. I couldnât calm her down and I became quite edgy myself. At one point, she started screaming and pulling out her hair. I didnât know what to do, so I started talking about the houseâall the fun things we were going to do and how great it was going to be with the three of us living together. That seemed to work. She got very excited and stopped talking about deathâit was a miracleâand then suddenly she wanted to go buy furniture and house stuff so we went to New York.â
I put my burger down. âWhy didnât you call me?â
âI know. I should have, but there was nothing you couldâve done.â Agnes picks up her fork and starts poking holes in her pancakes.
I wipe my fingers on my napkin and take a sip of water. âDid you call Maddyâs aunt and uncle?â
âAre you kidding? They donât care about her. They only care about her parentsâ money. If they had seen her in that manic state, they wouldâve had her committed.â
âDoes Maddy go to a shrink?â
âNo,â she says, swallowing visibly.
âThen how did she get all those prescription pills?â
âFrom her stepdad. Heâs a psychiatrist.â
âHe treats her?â
âNo, he just sends her whatever medication she