Free A Portal to Leya by Elizabeth Brown

wave
theory, we are all ephemeral in the physical sense. But our waves remain
behind. Waves can be one of three: positive, negative or neutral. Positive
waves are no more intensely felt than negative. Leya died on the day she was born,
October 30 th which was a powerful positive. And she was murdered.
The negative waves from the murder were overridden by the positive waves—one is
negated by the other. But the waves are present even after your death: that
chill at the base of my neck is Leya. The other day when I misplaced my
sweatshirt and found it on the front step—Leya. Another thing, Leya always
played tricks on me. Her favorite candy was jelly beans, especially the black
ones. Ever since she died, I find black jelly beans everywhere—under the couch,
on the kitchen floor, on the rug in my bedroom. I keep them in a jar on my
desk. I know her energy is with me.
    She was swallowed by
the darkness. For a moment, maybe her last moment, she felt it, pure
unadulterated evil. I can’t do a thing about it.
    Lance
     
    COMMENTS
    Heather so
nice. That gave me shivers.
    2cents morbid
dude. You’re hallucinating, stepping over that ridge.
     
    RECEPTIVE
    I thought of this today: ingesting energy happens
every day. Each time you interact with an energy source, you ingest some of it.
But you have to be receptive. I know I have received Leya. That makes me feel a
sense of peace. Christmas is supposed to be joy and peace. But, really, it
makes me empty; I fixate on Emmet, the dad I don’t know. I don’t remember Emmet.
I have one photograph. We are standing by the jetty at White Sands. He is
holding me in his arms. I have studied this one photo down to the minutest of
details; I know every shadow, every crease. We all look healthy, tanned, sun
bleached hair. Dorrie and Emmet are leaning into each other. They are so close,
they could be one person. Emmet is handsome. He has no shirt on. He is trim and
athletic. Dorrie is smiling. But Emmet is not. His mouth is partly Leya just
like mine. Our expressions are identical. Francis is not in the photo. He is
hiding underneath the cottage because he has a fever. I suppose I don’t mind at
all if I never know Emmet Bryce. We just share the same name and facial
expression, that’s all. Still, I think I am part of him and he is part of me,
because I came from him. I know this because when I see an image that could be
art (stones, water, trees, people), I think I could paint it, and I think it is
sent from him. I am the recipient. I am Leya to it. I believe he is looking at
the same image at precisely the same time. I don’t know what he paints. I don’t
know why he paints. I don’t know where he is.
    But as I was saying, Leya is here with me. People
(your average person) would think I was a lunatic if I talked about ingesting
people, or my wave theory, so I don’t say anything. Most people have a wall;
they are trained to keep their thoughts on select channels and anything outside
of those channels is rejected. All unseen particles of energy, in these cases,
are explained away as earthly dust or atoms or gases. People with firewalls are
asleep. They block any energy that could affect them in either positive or
negative ways; they fear vulnerability. They like to be powerful so they feed
off false energy—an inflated sense of self that they are convinced was formed
entirely separate from their environment and the people around them. But I know
my inner core is altered and evolving repeatedly by external waves. It’s an
important concept to first know and second to accept if you want to evolve and
improve awareness.
    I’m going to try to walk to school with Trudy
tomorrow. Only a few more days left before break. Then I won’t see her for a
week. I want to thank her and tell her that she needs to talk to the police. I
miss her.
    Lance
    COMMENTS
    Susanne Lance,
please call me. I left my number. I wanted to talk to you. I feel badly that we
haven’t connected. Please call. We can have