girlfriend was pretty or plain, smart or dumb. Certainly less manic than his own mother. And if they didnât want to know him, so what?
âGo on Thursday,â the girl had told him. âItâs his day off.â
Erwin stopped in front of the house and stared down the overgrown garden path. He could hear his motherâs voice. Some things canât be forgiven. Why did you go? Why? I ask so little â¦
Again, he started walking. He stood on the front porch and lifted his head to knock on the flyscreen door.
No more lessons, Erwin. Go and get yourself a job.
He knocked. There was shuffling from the kitchen at the far end of the house, but no reply. Then he heard a male voice talking in a slow, mechanical drone. âMy name is Basedow and I am from the German region of South Australia. I am writing to you to protest the arrest of Pastor Niemöller last week. The Pastor is a guiding light to Protestants in Australia.â
âHeâs not going to read your letter,â a womanâs voice piped up.
âWhy not?â
âHe has people to do that.â
âWhen they see itâs from Australia, donât you think theyâll pass it on?â
âNo.â
Erwin put his face to the flywire and called down the hallway. âHello.â
âHe probably values outside opinion,â the man continued.
âComing,â the woman called, as a chair shifted and she quietened to reply to the man. âHitler hasnât heard of the Barossa Valley.â
âRubbish.â
âFred,â she scolded, appearing in the hallway, looking towards the front door. âWho is it?â she asked, squinting.
âErwin,â he replied, starting to make her out.
âErwin who?â
âHergert.â
âNo â¦â
âThe boy?â the man asked.
âYes,â she replied, walking slowly down the hallway. She unlatched the door and opened it. âI never thought Iâd see the day,â she said.
Erwin was unsure what to do, or say. âIâm Joâs son,â he managed.
âI know who you are,â she replied. âItâs just I assumed youâd been ⦠warned off.â
âI was.â
âYeah, thatâs what Jo reckoned. Gee, you look like him. Come in.â
She took him to the kitchen and introduced him to Fred, the letter-writer. âMy husband,â she explained.
Fred stood up and Erwin shook his hand. âI didnât know,â Erwin said, lifting his hands in the air, confused. âI suppose thatâs why Iâm here.â
âAnd Iâm glad you are,â the woman said, taking him around the shoulder and squeezing tightly. âItâs a very brave thing to do, considering.â
âMy mum?â
âJo told me everything.â
âThe shed?â
âThe lot.â She pulled out a chair and offered it to him. âMy nameâs Shirley. Declan will be home soon.â
Erwin smiled. âGood ⦠I gotta get back to school.â
âBugger school,â she said. âDonât you want to meet your brother?â
Shirley made coffee and they talked â about school and Godâs Hill Road, Dodge trucks and piano lessons. She sat in front of him, holding his hands in hers, as Fred continued writing his letter to the accompaniment of a grandfather clock. He searched her face for clues, for something his father had seen â brown, receptive eyes, soft skin, a figure that hadnât buckled under the weight of gravity, a soothing voice and the ability to stop and listen, and hear, and say things like, âWhy would she say a thing like that?â
Here was the mother he hadnât had, but mightâve, if his father had chosen differently. Here was a mother that wouldnât make him a great pianist but might have made him happy, or happier. Here was the proof that life was random and unpredictable, the result
Legs McNeil, Jennifer Osborne, Peter Pavia