into the light.
âPapà !â whispered Merilee. She moved towards him.
âFranco,â cried Francesca. âThank goodness youâre here. Tell her she canât take Merilee. Sheâs too young to start that kind of life, she doesnât want it.â
Franco waved a jug of wine in the air. âAh, leave it alone, Francesca,â he mumbled.
His words were slurred. If theyâd been written on a blackboard, Leo thought, theyâd look blurred as if all the letters had been rubbed together with a duster. Leo could smell the stink of wine on Francoâs breath, as he burped loudly and lurched towards the carriage. He tripped on a loose stone and went sprawling over on the ground. The jug smashed and Franco let out a cry.
âDamn and blast,â he swore, âIâm bleeding, âCesca. Oh, Iâm going to be sickâhelp me!â
Beatrice stared down at him in disgust. She pointed at him with the toe of her shoe, as if he were a particularly ugly species of insect. âWhat kind of education will your daughter have here, Francesca? What kind of life can she lead with this
ubriaco
, this drunk for a father?â
âAll right, all right,â Francesca said tiredly.
Beatrice reached out and took Merileeâs hand, pulling her towards the carriage.
Leoâs heart was thumping. Now, I should do something
now
, he told himself. But he felt frozen, paralysed. His legs wouldnât move. His throat was dry.
Merilee didnât look back at her mother or father as the driver helped her inside. Leo watched the darkness swallow the small pale moon of her face. Beatrice swung up into the carriage after her, and leaned over the side.
â
Arrivederci!
â she called merrily. âStay well and get plenty of rest, Francesca, dear!â
âIt will only be for two weeks, then, wonât it?â Francesca called back. âIâll see you both in a fortnight, wonât I?â
But the driver had already whipped the horses and the wheels began to spin and Beatrice was calling goodbye so loudly that Francesca never heard a reply.
When all the pieces of the broken jug had been picked up and Francesca had helped her husband inside, Leo came out of the shadows. He walked down the stony path, into the swim of darkness beyond it. He began to run, his feet fumbling over uneven ground. He ran blindly, trying to escape the hot spurt of shame that was flooding him.
A rabbit hole sent him tumbling and he lay where he fell, not moving. His arms and legs splayed out wide on the damp, cold grass. He felt like a fallen star, grounded, burned out, useless.
He closed his eyes and all he could see behind the lids was the word,
failure
.
Chapter Seven
It was two and a half weeks since Merilee had gone, and Leo had heard nothing. Every day he did the same things he usually did. He washed, ate, did his lessons, went to the market, but the life had gone out of it all. Sometimes, in the afternoons, he played tag or spun tops with other boys in the square. But deep inside he felt there was nothing to look forward to, no warmth in the days. Just a dull grey dust over everything, with a nagging stab of worry behind it.
Then at the market one morning, he saw Francesca. She was buying some new seasonâs pears. He went and stood next to her, breathing in her familiar scent. Rose and jasmine. It made sudden tears prick behind his eyes.
âLeo!â Francesca turned towards him and put her hands on his shoulders. âItâs so good to see youâ
dio
, how much youâve grown!â
It was true. He was nearly as tall as she was. They both glanced nervously about as they began to wander through the stalls, talking.
Leo could hardly believe his luck. It just didnât seem real, as if they were walking in a dream. How different it all was without Beatrice hovering near. He kept expecting that any minute heâd wake up and Francesca would disappear, like mist