Free Rockstar Daddy (Decoy Series) by K.T Fisher Page A

like I need him too. Yes I have the help from my friends and my parents more than enough but I suppose it's a different kind of help when you have the father of your child with you there helping. I'm scared to see him though, I know I still love him. What will happen if I do see him? Will he still be the same man he was when I knew him? Has fame and money changed him? I wouldn't be surprised, being a rock and roll sex symbol would do that to a guy. I lay down next to Finley of his bed and cuddle up to him and whisper so I don't wake him up.
     
          "I will try and fix the baby I promise."
     
    I kiss him on his head and snuggle in closer.
     
    *~*~*
     
       A beeping sound makes me jump. It's now darker in Finley's room, his beside me snoring quietly. I must have fallen asleep with him. I sit up and quietly exit Finley's room. I get my phone out my jean pocket and I see I have a text.
     
    TANYA:   I love u honey, hope ur ok. Dont think about skipping our shopping trip tomorrow, I think u need it. B at mine at 10  xxx
     
     
    Yes I think I do really need this shopping trip tomorrow. Some retail therapy is definitely needed.
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
     
    Chapter 5
     
     
       I wake up in my usual manor this morning. Yes Finley is jumping on my bed shouting at me to wake up. I hope his not going to carry this on as he gets older because it will only get worse. He makes me move this much when his three and a half never mind in another three years.
     
          "Yay! Your awake mummy!"
     
    Like I had a choice to stay asleep through the bouncing. I roll out of bed and groan, I feel so tired today but today is shopping day. And the way Tanya is all hyped up I know I can't cancel. I chuck my dressing gown on and walk with Finley downstairs. As soon as we hit the bottom of the stairs he makes his demands. I'm pretty surprised, usually it's as soon as I stand.
     
       "Juice and toast mummy."
     
          "Magic word Finley."
     
    I decided that if his going to keep up with these demands then at least he can ask nicely.
     
       "Juice and toast mummy pleeease."
     
          "Good boy."
     
      The rest of the morning goes by nice and smooth. No tantrums or accidents, Finley didn't even take long deciding what he wanted to wear today. After I give Finley a kiss and say goodbye I drive to Tanya's house, she told us to be there at ten but it won't matter if I'm early. I look down at my outfit and make sure Finley didn't get any ceriel on my clothes. I'm in my super skinny high wasted jeans in a light blue colour, my white blouse is tucked in loosely to the high waistband of my jeans. I have my red wedges on so I have my red handbag to match. It's a sunny day so I have my big sunglasses on and my hair in a high messy bun. despite what happened at dinner last night I'm feeling OK. I think that little talk with Finley really helped and getting in his bed for a cuddle. I have however told everyone I don't really want to talk about it and Sophie doesn't know so nobody can bring it up in front of her. I will have to tell her soon though. I pull up outside Tanya's apartment and buzz her door number on the intercom
     
          "Hello?"
     
       "Tan it's me."
     
          "Eager beaver. Come on up."
     
    She buzzes me up and I walk through the apartment lobby and to the elevator. Tanya lives in a very nice small block of modern apartments. There's five floors and Tanya lives at the top. Before I can knock on her door she pulls it open, she's looking her usual gorgeous self. Her shiny blonde hair pulled in a slick ponytail, she's wearing purple jeans and a pain white vest top. She's barefoot at the minute, that's because it's a strict rule at Tanya's place. No shoes, so as I shut the door behind me I slip off my wedges.
     
          "So you'r early."
     
    We walk down her bright hallway barefoot on her light wooden floor.
     
          "Yea I came straight from school."
     
       "No prob, you wana