the way back to the library without stopping. I had a terrible urge inside me to catch the next train to London and follow him to the Tower. I had lost my friend and I was going to be alone again. I didnât know if I was more sorry for him or more sorry for me. Either way I was miserable.
I was sitting waiting on the steps of the library for Father when I had an idea. If I couldnât have Walter with me then I would have the next best thing. I would find a book about him from the library and read it. That way I could find out more about him and I could get to know him better even if he wasnât there. The book I found had very small print and only one picture of him, on the title page. It was of Walter Raleigh as a young man, but I recognised the way he stood leaningon his cane, a half-smile on his lips, his legs crossed.
I was half way through the first page when Father drew up. I could see at once that something was wrong. He was grey and drawn and he said not a single word all the way home. I asked him what the matter was, whether he was feeling ill, but he didnât even reply. It was as if he had never heard me. I had to wait until we got home to find out what had happened.
He walked around the garden with his arm around Mother and then out into Front Meadow beyond. With Will beside me I watched and waited for them to come back. When they did I could see that Mother had been crying, but she tried not to show it. âIâve got some bad news,â Father said, âand your mother says I ought to tell you. Well, here goes. Weâve got to leave the farm. Weâve got to sell up.â
âWhat do you mean?â said Will. âWhat do you mean, sell up?â
âNothing else for it.â said Father. âWe canât pay the rent on the place and so weâve got to go. Iâve just been in to see the bank manager. He says we canât go on, not any more. Thatâs all there is to it.â
CHAPTER 6
IT TOOK SOME TIME FOR IT TO SINK IN. WE SAT together, the four of us, in the hay barn. We could talk there, Mother said, without any danger of Gran overhearing. Beside me Father was sitting forward with his elbows on his knees picking the nail of his forefinger with his thumb nail. It was left to Mother to explain it all. To be honest it didnât much matter to me why it happened. I mean it didnât make any difference, did it? We were selling the farm and that was all there was to it. I suppose Mother was doing her best to make it hurt less.
âWeâve done all we can,â she said. âYour fatherâs worked himself to the bone. But it was always an uphill struggle on this land. It never was the best farmin the world but we knew that when we took it on, didnât we dear?â Father stared straight ahead of him and said nothing. Mother went on. âThe landâs steep and a lot of it faces north, and itâs wet land, too. Still, weâve managed to make ends meet over the years. But weâve had a bit of bad luck just these last two or three years â poor lambing for the last couple of years, a lot of singles and then we had that scour. The price of pigs has fallen and you remember there was that blight in the potatoes last year. We hardly lifted any good ones at all. We were hoping for a good corn harvest this year, but it wasnât good enough. The sums just werenât adding up and thatâs what farmingâs all about in the end. The sums have got to add up. âCourse, if we owned the farm we could sell of a bit of land and weâd be all right again then, but we donât. As you know, it belongs to Mr Watts.â
âI donât like Mr Watts,â said Will.
âLike him or not, Will, heâs the landlord,â said Mother, âand weâve got to pay him his rent. Weâve had to borrow money from the bank to pay the rent for three years now and Father says they wonât let us do it again. So
The 12 NAs of Christmas, Shelly Crane