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he didn’t deserve her love.
    In Carolina’s head she review over and over again all Tess words and a continuing agony began to grow inside her and an irritation to her own.
    Tess was right – Carolina admits to herself shaking her head.
    How had she been so stupid and foolish acting the way she had with JP, but now there was nothing to do, there was no way to modify the past.
    She couldn’t ever guess that JP could be a man with the potential to be the man of her life; it never crossed her mind that she would eventually like him for real too.
    If she knew it, she had never agreed to meet the way they did, but she never imagined or had never crossed her mind that they could have this outcome.
    She always thought she would have sex and never would see him again, and that after sex she never thought about his existence, but she was so wrong.
    That night when she went to bed, still unwell, she couldn’t sleep, though she hadn’t returned to vomit, still in agony she tried to hold up all night.
    She got up, went to the kitchen to make some tea hoping it could calm her stomach in flames since the call from Tess.
    She lay down on the couch watching TV and fell asleep already dawn.

Chapter 6
     
    In the morning, the boys went up and saw their mother lying on the couch; they knew they needed to wake her up to go to work. It was not usual seeing their mother lying there, but they saw her a couple times fallen asleep when she was watching TV. They knew she would appreciate been waken up.
    She woke up indisposed and went to work with a horrible headache like if she had a hangover.
    On the way to work she saw the messages on the phone and reviewed JP message again.
    She was so disappointed and angry with him, she didn’t know what to do or answer or rather if she should answer him at all.
    She didn’t want to talk with him anymore; he didn’t deserve a second of her attention any longer.
    Carolina managed to hold on for five days without answering JP, finally after her irritation have calmed down and with a cool head she sent him a message saying:
    "Imagine she wanted to introduce me to someone I already knew, she must been hitting her head somewhere."
    She tried to send him a relaxing message, no details about the potential romantic encounter that was almost happening and they refused to go into details, let alone talk about what he had told Tess about her.
    But she thought and rethought about it – She wouldn’t tell him anything, if she did, he would think that she would be giving too much importance to what happened.
    That's why she decided to send him a message to relieve pressure between them.
    He didn’t deserve to know the truth.
    As soon he gets her message, and for Carolina’s surprise he replies immediately:
    "Ah ah I need you, I want you in my bed again, and shall we meet again?"
    That it was, the message that Carolina wanted to receive for so long, the message she was hoping to receive over and over again to set another date, to be with him if only to repeat the extraordinary sex they had.
    For a moment she is tempted to say yes, but she held back and recalled everything Tess had told her, the way he acted with her and why.
    Tess was absolutely right, all the messages he sent Carolina, they were all only to confirm if she was still available for him, she couldn’t continue acting the same way as before.
    Carolina was not a sexual object of anyone, much like less to a man who doesn’t deserve her. She wasn’t willing to give up on her woman’s right for a man.
    She knew there was no point to continue any conversation with JP, because the only person who would end up suffering it would be her and no one else.
    Asking her mind over and over again if she could live and illusion to be happy only for brief moments would that be reasonable.
    Would it be worth it?
    Or was she just being masochistic?
    No, it was over. She wanted to move on in life, she wanted to forget him, and she chose not to give him any