to see inside her soul.
“Sorry, I wasn’t watching where I was going.”
Lightheaded from the drink, she remembered the last time she felt
like this. Pat had spiked her drink and got her to go with him to
his bedroom where all hell broke loose. Or at least that’s how she
remembered it. It all became a jumbled mess in her memory,
especially since the fire happened that same night.
“Hey.” He cupped her chin, forcing her to look at
him. “Did you take a drink?” he asked, concerned.
She shoved him back hard and started walking
fast.
“Gabby, you know you can’t drink.” He began trailing
beside her until finally he grabbed her arm, forcing her to stop.
“I’ll take you home.”
“No,” she almost screamed. She couldn’t think
straight. Maybe the only way to stop the fear is to succumb to
him . That thought scared her more than anything.
He cocked his head as if she spoke aloud something
he didn't quite understand, and she broke free from his grip and
ran. Fast.
After her lungs threatened to burst from her chest,
she stopped running. Running in tennis shoes was one thing. In
flats with the straps digging into your flesh was quite another.
Now she was alone, at night, in the middle of nowhere.
The streets dark and desolate, she decided to cut
through a grassy knoll west, as a light breeze picked up, forcing
her to shudder. She couldn't get the image of Jake and Alexi out of
her head. Why did it bother her so much? Could she be jealous?
Really? Jake was nothing to her and yet a well of emotions
scattered throughout her very being. Anger. Regret. Fear. Anger
some more. And finally acceptance. Gabby had nothing on Alexi.
Gabby the freak would never have anyone like Jake care for her.
Stopping at a narrow road, she caught a hint of
sulfur in the air, tasting it in the back of her throat. The trees
swayed, and the leaves fluttered with the breeze. Shadows, created
by the dim light of the moon, loomed over her, menacing as if they
intended to peel away from whatever substance gave them birth and
swallow her. The hairs on the nape of her neck prickled. Someone
was dancing over her grave, she thought.
She continued west, walking fast, and stopped at St.
Benedicts Church. Or what used to be St. Benedicts Church. The
building no longer stood. A fire had ravaged it to the ground. She
stared at it in disbelief. Father Kane had been one of the few
adults in town who didn’t blame her for last year’s fire. His kind
manner had made her believe that there were good people in the
world.
“Tragedy, ain’t it?”
Gabby whirled to the small voice, almost jumping out
of her skin.
Marty Gary lived clear on the other side of town.
Gabby had known Marty since they were both in fifth grade. Gabby
would sneak off to the fairgrounds where she blended in with all
the other freaks. She found Marty there under the boardwalk one
night in the arms of a much older boy. The older boy had told Gabby
to scram, but Gabby stood her ground, peering over at a very scared
Marty. Gabby hadn’t waited for another threat when she picked up a
rock and threw it at the boy, hitting him square on the head,
knocking him silly. Marty had laughed, and with tears streaming
down her face, ran to Gabby and they were friends ever since. Marty
wasn’t the best judge of character, but she was one of the few
friends Gabby had.
“When did you get in?” Marty asked.
“Last night.”
“How’s Max?”
Gabby knew Marty had a mad crush on Max, but
everyone who met him ended up having a crush on him. “He’s good.
Out in New York right now. He should be here in a couple of
days.”
Marty nodded, her dirty blonde hair moving with her.
“Right, your birthdays.” She smiled, though her gray eyes lowered
to the ground. Marty had been there when the fire broke out last
year, on her birthday.
After Pat and Max had disappeared in a fight that