with her family.
âSo howâs your apartment?â Mother shot at her in an offhand manner, smiling to instill confidence.
âFine, ⦠fine.â Rita looked up perfunctorily so that no one could start a discussion about her not raising her head and speaking with respect.
âAnd your roommates?â
âFine, ⦠theyâre fine â¦â
âOooszp ⦠oooszp.â Father tilted his plate to pull in the last few dregs of his soup. He was completely unconcerned with the other people around the table.
âWhy donât you bring one around so I can take her out,â Randy suggested giddily, a childish sneer on his mouth. His eyes darted to Mother. She indicated a slight smile, then looked quickly at Father from the side of her eyes.
Father glanced at Randy sternly, annoyed, then down to his soup again. Father did not approve of talk about the interrelationship of boys and girls in the presence of his family. Consideration of these subjects was reserved for the bodies of Father and his girl friend, and the ribald, evil humor of his friends as they regaled themselves, ostensibly in secret, with crude stories.
âI donât think theyâd be interested,â Rita replied with restraint.
âWhy not? If they like you, they canât be too hot.â
Rita winced. This was a parent-approved way for Randy to speak because he was only a boy, a little child, ⦠a child that did not know better, who could learn about life by chance as he got older, and besides, Rita ⦠well, Rita lived in the Village.
Rita drew in an extra breath to squelch her rising anger. Her mouth chomped on the inside of her cheek as she stared at Randy. She looked down and tried to concentrate on her soup.
âWhat else do we have?â asked Father.
âLiver ⦠mashed potatoes.â Mother stood to bring out the rest of the food.
âMmmmm ⦠a meal fit for a king.â Father rubbed his hands together with delight. âWhat else are you doing?â Father asked Rita as he waited.
âWorking, you mean?â
âAnything. What are you doing at all?â He continued the general inquisition.
âNothing much, ⦠still a waitress, ⦠still going to class three times a week.â
Disgust flickered on Fatherâs mouth. His head began to nod with the weighty problems of the patriarch. He enjoyed even this grief of leadership.
âWell, I canât explain you anything, can I?â he asked. âYouâre gonna do what you want no matter â¦â
âPop, letâs not start another argument. I came home to see how everybody was, not to discuss what Iâm doing. Canât we leave it at that?â
âWait a minute! You donât mind if I tell you something?â He aimed a finger at her face, his eyes narrowing. âIf youâre so worried about us, you would be home more ⦠so donât hand me that crap. I donât know yet what you want, but youâre not gettinâ nothinâ. You live in that, âGreen-witchâ Village and then you come home and expect whatever you expect from your poor mother and me,â he snorted. âI let you get away with too much. I should give you a good slap in the mouth and make you come home, thatâs what I should do. Iâm too good to you. Other fathers would let their daughters go and live in the Village by themselves, ⦠hhmph. Theyâd cut their kidsâ legs off first.â
Rita absorbed this tirade silently. Father was quiet for many minutes, contemplating.
â⦠but I want you to find out for yourself, and do what you think is best,â he began again mildly, solicitously. âDo you think daddy yells at you because I like it? I know what youâre going through, and I want to help you. I was young once. But if you donât listen to me â¦â Anger flared for an instant. âIâm doing these things for your own