get,â he said. âThen I would know that Iâd made it, Iâd succeeded. Then I could slow down and enjoy what I had. Maybe settle down and have a family. But lately, it seems like the harder I work, the further away the feeling gets.â
âWhat does building a restaurant here have to do with it? Isnât it even more of a risk? Chapel isnât exactly a hoppinâ place.â
âIâve proven myself in the business community, and had a decent, although short-lived career playing ball. Iâve resolved things with my parents to the point where I can forgive them and move on. The only thing I havenât done is prove Iâve made it to the people in Chapel.â
âYou know what I think?â
âHuh?â
âYou spend way too much time worrying about what other people think.â
She was probably right. In fact, he was sure she was right, but heâd run out of other options.
âYou mentioned your parents. Do you see them very often?â
âAs little as I have to.â
âI heard you set them up in a pretty nice place in Florida.â
Yeah, nice and far away, where he didnât have to watch them slowly committing suicide. âI used to think money would be the answer to their problems. I tried for a couple years to get them into detox programs, the best money could offer, but they never lasted for more than a week or two. There came a point where I had to back away. You canât save someone who doesnât want to be saved.â
âAt least you tried.â
âI just make sure theyâre taken care of. If theyâre going to drink themselves to death, theyâll do it in a nice condo on the beach. My mom has money to play bingo five nights a week and my father has his satellite dish and plasma TV to pass out in front of.â
She reached over and rested her hand on his forearm. âThey donât deserve you, Matt.â
Something in the way she said his name and her gesture of comfort made the next words hard to say without emotion messing with his voice. âThey werenât great parents, but they did the best they could.â
The sympathy in her eyes nearly did him in. This was why he didnât like to talk to people about personal stuff. It did weird things to him, like turn him into a big wuss.
âSo,â he said, desperately needing a change of subject, âyou havenât said much about your boyfriend. I take it itâs not very serious.â
âWhat makes you assume that? For all you know, we could be engaged.â
âNo ring.â
She glanced down at the hand resting on his arm and something in her eyes darkened. He thought for sure sheâd pull away, but she let it rest there. âIâve never been real big into jewelry.â
He reached up, rubbing her earlobe between his fingers. The look in her eyes went from dark to simmering. Donât fight it, he thought. You know you canât resist me. âNo piercings.â
âThatâs not exactly true,â she said. âI do have one.â
He examined her face, at all the obvious places, but didnât see any holes. âLet me guess, you had your navel done?â
She shook her head.
âTongue?â
She made a face. âYuck. No way.â
âWhere else is there?â
Her gaze wandered down to the front of her shirt. When he realized what she meant, all the air backed up in his lungs. âYour nipple?â
âIt was purely an act of rebellion. In college, a friend of mine got hers pierced. My mom said if I ever did, she would disown me.â
âSo you did it anyway?â
A defiant grin spread across her face. âThe next day.â
âI guess she didnât disown you.â
âI never told her. I ended up really liking it. Even though I was the only one who knew it was there, it made me feelâ¦sexy. Iâm pretty small up top, so it gives me that extra