were a Utah Jazz fan,â I say.
âNo, sorry.â He lies flat on the ground, nearby. âAre you? I didnât think you had a team.â
âI donât. You wore it to school a few times, so I thought . . . you know.â
âUtahâs the closest team to here,â he explains. âI figured most kids would be for Utah. Or Phoenix. I have a Suns jersey, too.â
âSo, youâre really a Knicks fan?â
âNo.â Bailey grins. âDonât try to guess my team. I have all the shirts.â
Bailey James, man of mystery.
âWhere did you live before?â
âDelaware. Before that, Pensacola. Before that, um, Seattle?â
âWow.â
âIâm used to being the new kid,â he says, tossing the ball up and catching it. âWe move around a lot.â
I canât imagine it. I never remember living anywhere but in this house in this town. Every inch of this place is part of my story.
âHow come?â
âMilitary brat.â He shrugs. âYou get used to it.â
âSo, you might be leaving?â I felt it. I did.
His expression goes funny. âNaw. Probably not for a while this time.â
âYour dad or your mom?â I say.
âItâs just my mom.â
âOh. Sheâs in the military?â
âNo.â Bailey catches the ball, holds it. âI donât like to talk about my dad,â he says.
âMe either,â I whisper.
For a long moment we rest there, locked in something silent but strong, held fast by whatever sadness is hanging over us. I donât know about his dad, and he doesnât know about mine, but thereâs a second where itâs like we do know. The line we draw around ourselves sort of breaks open. For a moment, weâre a figure eight. Everything else is outside, and itâs just us. In.
CHAPTER 28
S unday morning i fix my own bowl of cereal for breakfast. The house is quiet, which is odd because Grammieâs not the type to sleep in. I knock on her bedroom door, but sheâs not there. I find her in the garage, tinkering under the hood of the car.
âWhat are you doing?â
âWell, we need an oil change,â she says, showing me the fresh line on the wiped-clean dipstick. âYou wanna ride into town with me? Need to stop at the Walmart, too.â
âYeah?â I say, hesitant. Thatâs where Zâs mom works.
Grammie fixes on me with hawk eyes. âYour new friend coming to play today?â
âNo.â Bailey says he has something to do on Sundays. A family thing.
âWell, then, letâs go, kiddo.â Grammie swats at my behind with the grease rag until I hop into the backseat.
Fine.
Thereâs one of three places where I can always find Z. The games and puzzles section, the snack bar, or automotive.
Today heâs in automotive. I almost donât notice him. Heâs sitting on the floor, staring at the tall piles of tires, holding one of his boxes in his hand. Box 4. The special box. The secret box.
He has a small satchel beside him, smaller than his school bag, no doubt for the rest of his boxes.
âHi,â I say.
Z flinches, startled. He clutches the box to his chest, like armor.
âMilady,â he murmurs.
I fold my legs beneath me, across from him. âZachariah.â
He slides the loose box back in the bag with the others. âEllie-nor.â
We look at each other. Itâs one of those moments where weâre both trying to make sense of things. And probably coming up with different answers, which isnât how it used to be. One plus one doesnât always equal two, for whatever reason.
âWe missed some games this week. Do you want to make them up?â I say.
Z fingers the edges of his bag. He says nothing but reaches in and extracts the box of chessmen. He knows which box it is by feel, even though theyâre basically identical.
He lays it between