didnât want Izzy to worry about me. I thought she had enough anxieties with the actual rowing. But then I had a nice surprise because she gave me a big grin.
âLook! I can turn the scull round now!â
I didnât have time to watch so I just called out, âHey! Well done, Iz!â and thought about how great it would be if I could be in a double scull with Izzy. Maybe Iâd ask Ryan about that.
As soon as we set off, with Holly coxing, I felt myself tensing up and knew I wasnât sculling as well as before. She remembered all the commands and yelled them out as though we were deaf, but Ryan praised her and said, âThatâs right. Take control, Holly. Show them whoâs in charge!â Then he said he was going off to see how everyone else was getting on, and heâd be back shortly.
The moment heâd gone, Holly suddenly seemed to work us even harder. Her commands were getting faster and louder and she didnât let up at all. â Now! Legs now ! Drive now ! Legs now !â We were heading towards the island and I found myself struggling to keep up with the speed and wondered if it was my fault for overdoing it on the rowing machine during the week. I wished I knew if the others also felt as though their arms and legs would drop off, but I was determined to keep going, because it would be so humiliating if Holly thought I wasnât strong enough to be stroke, and said something to embarrass me in front of the others.
After a minute or two though, I realized that our oars were getting in a tangle, which meant that one of the others, or maybe more than one, hadnât been able to keep up with the speed, which wasnât surprising.
âOh, guys! Youâve lost it!â said Holly, sitting up straight and pursing her lips, then shrugging dramatically as though we were hopeless.
It wasnât our fault, it was hers, and I wished I had the nerve to say so, but I didnât. We just werenât experienced or fit enough to scull as fast as she was trying to make us do it.
âWhat are you trying to do, kill us?â said Charlotte. âWait till itâs my turn to cox, then Iâll show you what itâs like.â
When I turned round to look at Mikki and Tilly they seemed too exhausted to speak, but they were both nodding and rolling their eyes.
âThe trouble was, Sasha lost the speed,â said Holly, not looking at me. âItâs up to stroke to lead the others, so thatâs why you got in a mess.â
And then I saw that Ryan was right beside us and at the same time I felt my face flooding with colour. âHowâs it going?â he asked. âLooked like you were doing brilliantly when I was watching you just then.â
âHolly was making us go too fast,â puffed Charlotte.
âWe couldnât keep up,â said Tilly. âCan someone else be cox now?â
âReady for another change around?â said Ryan. âOkay, come back in, then try Sasha as cox and you go at stroke, Holly.â
My heart sank. This was going to be worse than ever. Ryan stayed alongside as we rowed back to the landing stage and it made me cross that Holly was on her best behaviour, coxing in a loud, encouraging voice and sticking to a much steadier speed so we could all manage to keep in time with each other.
As we changed places I looked round for Izzy and saw that she was in a quad scull with Penny coxing. It wasnât going very well because the boat was weaving about all over the place and the oars seemed to be in loads of different positions. I could hear Penny calling out instructions but the girls didnât look anxious or anything. In fact Izzy seemed to have broken into giggles with the girl behind her, and I thought how much more fun she was having than me.
âOkay, Sasha, do your stuff!â said Ryan. âDonât be afraid to be bossy!â
I tried to smile at him but I think it must have come out