the house before she closes the door. âDo you think I could borrow a pole and a lure? Iâd love to go out for a while this afternoon. It wasnât that cold last night, so I can use one of the old holes. I wonât need the auger.â
She shakes her head. âNot by yourself. Thatâs rule number one on the ice.â
âWhat if I ask my mom or dad to go with me?â
She raises her eyebrows as if she canât quite picture Mom touching a cold, flopping perch. âSure, thatâs fine if theyâre willing.â She nods toward the garage. âThere are poles ready to go, leaning in the corner. You can take two, and grab a bucket to share.â
âThanks!â I take the gear from the garage and hurry back to our house.
âHey, Mom?â I call into the kitchen. âDo you want to go down to the lake for a while?â
âNot now. I should have started on dinner half an hour ago.â
âOkay! See you in a while.â I duck outside before she can say anything else.
I asked. Thatâs what I told Mrs. McNeill Iâd do. I feel a twist of guilt in my chest because I know thatâs not what she meant, but I need the ice tonight.
I pick up one poleâthe lureâs still tied on from the other dayâand leave the other one and the bucket on shore. I wonât be keeping the fish I catch.
The ice is quiet this afternoonâall settled with nothing to say. Itâs wetter and more slippery than usual, since the sunâs been beating down all day. I walk out carefully, sliding one foot ahead of the other until I get to the fishing hole by the point. Itâs crusted over with the thinnest cover of ice. I give it a poke with the end of my rod, and the ice cracks so a thin layer like broken glass floats on the waterâs surface. I clear it away, drop my line in the water, and wait.
I stand with my boots in the dusting of snow, waiting for a tug, until my nose starts to run. I forgot to bring Kleenex, so I pull a Drew and wipe it on my sleeve. Iâm glad my wish for him worked out.
And I really hope the fish is here today, willing to grant one more wish. I need Abby to come home from college this weekend so she can take me to my feis. Her grades will be okay. One day away from her books wonât matter. Iâll help her study in the car. I can quiz her on her chemistry vocabulary or whatever. I just want to go to my feis.
I bounce the lure a few feet below the surface. The lake is so quiet today. Maybe I wonât get a chance to make a wishat all. The sun sinks behind the trees, and Iâm getting ready to reel in my line when I feel a tug. I tug back, and the fish is hooked.
When I bring it up, its eyes are as bright as I remember.
âPlease,â it says in that gravelly voice. âRelease me, and I will grant you a wish.â
I ease the fish off the lure and hold it in my hand. I take a breath, ready to wish, and hesitate. This is the first wish thatâs really only about me. The first one thatâs truly selfish. At least, itâs the first wish like that Iâve made since I understood the fish was real and I wasnât just messing around. I canât help feeling like those wish-story people who should know better but donât.
The fish twitches in my hand, and inside my chest, my heart does the same thing. Iâm afraid of this wish. But Iâve never wanted anything as much as I want to dance in my new solo dress.
Iâve worked so hard for it. I spent practically every January afternoon out on the ice. Iâve been plowing through my homework during lunch and getting up early to finish whatever I donât wrap up before bed. Iâve been bundling myself up in five thousand layers that still canât keep my hands warm in the lake-wind and hauling buckets of bait out here every day instead of playing with Denver or watching TV or practicing dance on the kitchen floor. Iâve raisedthe