there for my daughter,â he says. âFamily first.â
When I hear that, my eyes burn and the plates Iâm scrubbing turn all blurry in the sink.
Abby always seems to get Momâs and Dadâs attention, whether sheâs scoring a soccer goal or complaining about stomach cramps. I swallow hard because I hate feeling this way. Itâs awful and selfish and babyish, but I canât help it. I know Abbyâs sick and needs to have tests now. I know thatâs important.
But my feis was important too.
And nobody offered to cancel their plans for me.
Chapter 9
Hospital Secrets
When youâre in English class reading stories about wishes, itâs easy to see things coming. I remember sitting at my desk, doodling stars in the margins of my notebook, thinking about how stupid all the story-wishers were. Our class had a whole discussion about what we would have done differently if we were the characters, and we were all kinds of smug about it. We would have wished so much smarter than those dumb story-people. Our wishes would have worked out a lot better.
But itâs a totally different deal when youâre out on the ice with a talking fish flopping between your mittens. When you really, really need something, you forget about using specific language and speaking clearly and not being too greedy and all the other unspoken laws for wishing. You blurt things without thinking. Things like âLet Abby comehome from college this weekend,â instead of âLet Abby come home from college this weekend. Let there not be anything wrong, and let her be available and happy to take me to the feis.â If I were in a story, readers would be rolling their eyes at how dumb my wish was.
But Iâm not in a story. And Iâm not on my way to the feis. Iâm in an emergency room exam room with Abby and Dad, waiting for Abbyâs nurse to come back.
âIâm thinking of a word,â Dad says.
I sigh and look around. âStethoscope?â
âNope.â Dad looks at Abby. âYour turn.â
âThis is stupid,â Abby says, crossing her arms tight over her chest. Sheâs wearing a bulky UVM sweatshirt over her hospital gown, scowling out from under its green hood. âI need to go home and sleep and Iâll be fine.â
Dad shakes his head. âThe doctor says youâre dehydrated and need IV fluids.â
Abby shakes her head. âSo stupid.â
Dad sighs. âThe word was tiramisu. Itâs an Italian dessert. In case anyone was wondering.â
The nurse comes back pushing a metal stand with two bags of liquid hanging from it. âIâm going to need you to take off your sweatshirt,â she tells Abby.
âItâs freezing in here.â Abby hugs the thick fabric to her chest and looks at Dad. âCanât I try drinking some water instead? I bet I can keep it down now.â
âYou can certainly try,â the nurse says, âbut you need the IV too.â
âSeriously? Dad, come on . . .â
Abby can almost always get what she wants from Dad, but this time, he shakes his head. âDocâs orders. But Iâll go get you a bottle of water and you can have that too, okay?â
âThanks.â Abby waits until Dad leaves to take off her sweatshirt. The nurse is turned the other way, getting the needle ready so she can start Abbyâs IV. When she turns back, she takes Abbyâs hand. Then she stops and stares at the inside of Abbyâs elbow.
I look there too. Abby has an ugly purple and yellowish bruise. âGeez, Ab. Whatâd you do to your arm?â I ask.
The nurse glances my way, then looks back at Abby. âItâs nothing,â Abby says. She pulls her arm back from the nurse and looks down at her hands in her lap. âI was messing around with some weights in the gym at school and dropped one on my arm.â
âI need to start your IV now,â the nurse says