vessels for it to possess after him. Not the most romantic realization. Mike would have preferred something along the lines that heâd changed the monsterâs heart, or some shit like that. Maybe he had. It was tough to remember everything Semyaza had said to him, what with all the fear of impending doom and such. In the end, though, Mike was perfectly fine with Semyaza just giving up and going to hell, or wherever he went.
âThatâs right.â Greg flashed his best shit-Âeating grin. âThought youâd seen the last of me, huh?â
âWhen the whole fallen angel thing ended happily, well yeah, I thought I had.â
âSorry to disappoint. And I wouldnât say it ended happily. A whole hell of a lot of Âpeople died.â
âPoint taken. Come here to give me more bad news?â
âSomething like that.â
âDonât tell me thereâs another fallen angel loose and wreaking havoc somewhere. Iâm having a hard enough time resisting a drink as it is.â
âNo loose angels.â Greg sighed. âAt least not yet.â
âWhat the hell does that mean?â
âIt means I donât know the whole picture. Besides, itâs not important right now.â
âShit, if thatâs not important then Iâm scared to hear what is.â
Gregâs face sagged and his eyes softened. âYou might have to kill again, Mike.â
âThatâs where youâre wrong. Only in self-Âdefense from now on. No more assassinations. No more contracts for foreign governments to satisfy Uncle Samâs IOUs.â
âI understand, but I told you before there would be more.â
âSo, I have to kill to prove you right? Iâm not signing up for this bullshit.â
Greg held up a calming hand. âYouâre looking at this all the wrong way.â
âExpand my view of things, then.â
âIâm not here to tell you that you have to kill for the government, Mike, or any other government or even the fucking mob. If it comes to the point where you have to take a life, it will be to protect others. Itâs not political or criminal or personal.â
âHorseshit. I just shook the ghosts of those Iâve already killed. Ghosts that clung to me no matter how much I told myself it was all to protect others. I was only able to chase them away when I learned there is a soul and it moves on. That I wasnât the end for them. Bit easier to deal with when you can think of it that way. And donât tell me itâs not personal. Itâs always personal, unless youâre a fucking psychopath. You know that better than anyone.â
âSo this earthly life isnât precious because thereâs life after death?â
âWhat the fuck are you talking about? Of course this life is precious. I just said it was personal.â
âYou said killing was personal. I concur. You said you were able to chase the ghosts away because the soul continues to exist beyond this realm. I understand how that knowledge would make it easy to deal with. But wouldnât it also make it easier to kill? I mean, the soul moves on, so who gives a shit about taking a life in the here and now? Maybe it makes you easier to become a psychopath. Unless you think this life is precious. But how can this life of transient meat be precious if the soul moves on?â
âBut . . .â
âBut what?â
âI . . .â Mike couldnât think of a single thing to say. Heâd felt better after talking to Semyaza. He thought it didnât matter how many heâd killed because there was something more. Something beyond this reality. But now he couldnât say that was true. He started to feel the weight of the dead on his shoulders once more.
âWondering why you feel like shit?â Greg asked.
âSort of.â
âItâs because this life is precious. Every moment of it. Sure,