true.”
“ I will fight for you, literally and metaphorically if I need to”, I say. “And we’ll take it slow, or fast, or whatever works for us to be together.”
“ It sounds like you’re proposing something more serious than a quick and dirty fuck every now and again. That’s not to be said lightly.”
“ I’m not saying it lightly”, I say.
“ Think about it”, she says. “Think about what this means to you and your life. Maggie is here to stay which means if you choose to, you have to as well, permanently. Not when you like but when you are needed.”
“ I’m telling you, Jasmine, I’ve never felt more sure about this than anything else in my life. I’ve never felt more sure about you, or her.”
Jasmine gets to her feet “Take a week”, she says. “Think about it.”
“ A week?” I ask.
“ Call me then”, she says. “A week should be enough for it to sink in. Watch some videos, talk to some parents, maybe even your own. Find out what it’s really like and then we’ll talk again, I’ll be here for you, I’m not going anywhere. You have my number and you know where I live.”
Jasmine holds out her hand and I take it to let her pull me to my feet.
“ I like you, Liam”, she says and lets me embrace her. “I’m saying this not because I don’t, but because I do. In the long run, you’ll understand, even if right now, it sounds a little harsh.”
“ I know”, I say. “I get it, don’t worry. One week from now I’ll be banging that door down to get at you both, just a warning.”
I kiss her neck lightly before pressing my lips to hers.
“ You better go quickly before I change my mind”, she says. “And here I am trying to be all grown up about it.”
It takes a superhuman amount of restraint to pull myself away from her. It’s already been a week and tonight I was hoping we’d fuck like animals again. It’ll have to wait because as much as I want to toss her around the bedroom like a doll, she’s right and I want to respect her decision.
She allows me one last look at our baby daughter before I’m out on the street again, a smile across my face that shows no signs of leaving as I practically run all the way home.
One week is going to fly by, I know it. After that Jasmine, Maggie and I can get on with some serious catching up.
Jasmine
I feel like a real grown up. Turning down a guaranteed offer of an incredible night of the kind of fucking that makes porn stars blush with a sex god like Liam because I’m thinking about the future of my family.
It has to be done, though. I need to know whether Liam is going through the kind of feelings kids do when they get puppies at Christmas without realizing that for ninety-nine percent of the rest of the time they are not looking cute they are hard fucking work.
Novelty wears off, no matter how cute the baby, and, don’t get me wrong, Maggie is a real cute baby, but she’s super hard work too. That doesn’t mean she isn’t worth it, there isn’t a day that passes that I’d want to change what happened, it’s just I have to make sure that Liam doesn’t think he can pop in and out whenever he feels like it.
When I go to her room, she’s sleeping soundly, which based on her behavior lately, I have to say is a rare treat.
I go to my own, lay down and think about what all this means.
Liam is mixed up in a whole world of shit I had no idea about, but it’s clear that he wants out as soon as possible, while I grind out a lifestyle which must be taking several years off my life expectancy. I’m not one of these girls who hates waitressing but feels like there are no other options, and I’m not one of those other types of girls who are born to do it and die in the profession. I fall somewhere in the middle. The hours are flexible, the tips can be good and it fits around everything else I’ve got, as long as the restaurant and managers are decent. The thing is, I know I can’t do it forever.
Telling Liam