nonsense. Your Mama will be perfectly cared for by Mrs. Darrowby.â
Lucia ran from the room to hide the fact that she was starting to cry.
âI must not show him how upset I am,â she determined, as she returned upstairs. âBut I am just a pawn in my stepfatherâs game of chess.â
She was just about to make for her room when she saw Mrs. Darrowby coming towards her with an anxious look on her face.
âOh, Miss Lucia. There you are. Iâve been looking for you.â
âMama â she is not worse?â
âNo, she is still sleeping, but I would speak with you in private.â
Lucia led her into her room and closed the door.
âWhat is it, Mrs. Darrowby?â
âIf I may speak plainly, miss. Itâs Doctor Maybury. I donât think he is very good. He barely examined the Mistress this morning and then proclaimed that she was suffering from a slight chest infection.â
âMama has had this trouble before.â
âNo, miss. I knows chest infections. She was bringing up blood before the doctor came and I did not like to alarm you. He did not seem interested when I told him, but who am I to argue with such a man?â
Lucia thought for a while before replying.
Her stepfather would not countenance her sending for Doctor Glossop and she had no money to speak of herself. His fees were far too dear to be hidden amongst the household expenses.
âMrs. Darrowby, we must do our best with what resources we have. Watch Mama like a hawk and if there is any change, you must send for me.â
âSend for you? Why, are you going away?â
âFrom Monday, I will be away from the house during the week, but I shall return home at weekends. You will have to manage.â
Mrs. Darrowbyâs face crumpled.
âOh!â she cried. âI donât know how the Mistress will take this news. Is this your stepfatherâs doing?â
âHush. There is nothing to be gained by apportioning blame. I do not wish to alarm you, Mrs. Darrowby, but we find ourselves in difficult circumstances. I would ask you to bear whatever hardship comes along until such time as things improve.â
âOf course, miss,â she sniffled in response. âIâll go and make some tea.â
Mrs. Darrowby left the room and Lucia dissolved into tears.
âShe is right. How will Mama bear the news that I am to be sent away all week? It should be my stepfather who breaks it to her â not me or a servant.â
She hit the pillows in anguish.
âI would never forgive myself if this contributed to Mamaâs demise,â she sobbed. âAnd I would never, never speak to my stepfather again either.â
But she knew that her fate was sealed and that her future lay some ten miles away at Longfield Manor.
CHAPTER FIVE
Lucia wandered over to her motherâs room.
Quietly she opened the door and put her head inside. Her mother was asleep and her mouth had fallen slightly open. Her skin was grey and her breathing laboured.
It brought tears to Luciaâs eyes to see her.
âMama â she cried under her breath.
Tiptoeing quietly towards the bed, Lucia smoothed down the coverlet and sank down in the chair close by.
She sat there for a while gazing at her mother while her heart contracted with sorrow.
âWhat will I do if we lose her? She looks so ill.â
Lucia looked at the cluster of bottles on the bedside cabinet and picked up each one in turn.
Taking up the brown bottle at the back with a cork stopper, she furrowed her brow at the dried trickle of fluid that had collected around the rim.
âI shall speak with Mrs. Darrowby about ensuring better hygiene in the sick room,â she muttered to herself.
It was then that she noticed the printed label.
âLaudanum!â she gasped in horror.
At the same moment, Mrs. Darrowby came into the room with the tea tray.
âThere you are, miss. I went to your room and found the door