Free Ryan's Love by Charlie Dillard Page A

mom
shouted.
    “ Well
what was the secret she was talking about, ” I ask not wanting to
admit defeat just yet?
    An odd
look passed over my Mom ’ s face before she
answered, “ Look that ’ s not my place to
say. But what I will say is you don ’ t deserve her. When
she didn ’ t call me back after she
was supposed to have lunch with you, I called the office and she
didn ’ t answer. I was so worried for her, that I went back
to the office and found her sprawled out on the bathroom
floor. ”
    My
heart started damn near beating out of my chest at the thought of
My Sunshine being hurt. I don ’ t know what
I ’ d do if she was hurt; and from something I said or did
too.
    “ Mom,
please tell me she ’ s ok. ”
    “ Well
she ’ s out in the living room laying on the couch. I got
some fluids into her, and she seems a little better. But
I ’ m telling you now that once she finds out what you
did, she will be devastated; and I don ’ t know if I really
want her to forgive you, ” my Mom says shaking her head and
walking out of the room.
    Shit.
    What
am I going to do? How am I going to look into her sweet eyes and
tell her what happened? And what is the secret that she needs to
tell me? It can ’ t be anything bad if
the person she was talking to on the phone was my
mom.
    I
prepare myself for the talk that I ’ m about to have with
Sunshine, then I make my way out to the living room to talk with
her.
    When I
get out there, I see her laying down on the couch with a washrag on
her forehead; and my mom was kneeling down beside her saying
something that only she could hear. When my presence was known by
the two of them, they both turn and look up at me.
Sunshine ’ s bottom lip began to tremble and she quickly
turns back away from me and buries her face into the side of the
couch. My mom shook her head and left the room, not forgetting to
give me a stinky look as she walked by me.
    “ Sunshine, ” I say as I tip-toe over next to her.
    She
doesn ’ t even flinch at the sound of my
voice.
    “ Baby, please turn around and look at me. ”
    I see her tremble a bit, then she
slowly turns over and is looking at me with a blank stare. Oh what
have I done. My sweet Sunshine looks bad. Her eyes are puffy and
red. She has circles around them, and there are tear streaks
running down her face.
    “ What? Do you want to tell me how disgusting I am
again? ”
    I cringe at that
statement.
    I
can ’ t believe that I said that to her.
    “ Please forgive me. I never should have said those hurtful
things to you. I should have listened to you. I ’ m
sorry, ” I say kneeling down next to her and taking her hand in
mine.
    She quickly pulls it
away.
    “ It
really doesn ’ t matter anymore. I
was so happy when I found out...that doesn ’ t really matter
anymore either. I just know now that I should have never let myself
fall in love with you. I knew you would hurt me, but I stupidly
fell for you anyway. ”
    “ Found out what, ” I ask?
    I should have said that she was
wrong. I love her and I would never hurt her purposely.
    “ Just
leave me alone, ” she says flipping back over on the
couch.
    “ Please tell me what ’ s going
on, ” I
beg.
    Without even turning around she said, “ My secret was
I ’ m pregnant. I was happy to tell you. I thought
you ’ d be happy. You ruined this day for me. I
won ’ t remember how happy I was when I found out I was
pregnant, all I ’ ll remember now is
how worthless you made me feel about it. ”
    A
baby. My Sunshine is pregnant. Wow. I ’ m so happy knowing
I ’ m going to be a father, but sad knowing what I did to
hurt her.
    “ A baby, Love.
Wow. We ’ re going to have a baby
together, ” I say touching the small of her back.
    She jerked away from me.
    “ Please don ’ t touch me. Yes,
I ’ m going to have a baby and so are you. But know this,
it won ’ t be together. I would never keep the baby away from
you. You can be there as much or as little as you want. But