Free Paradisal Tragedy by Ada Marie Page B

own way
    Now everything was spinning in slow motion out of control. She wanted nothing more than for everything to be the way it once was. She would love nothing more than to be able to be the way around her friends that she used to be, but she couldn’t go back. She couldn’t erase the past, the filth and disgust that she felt every time she saw her reflection in the mirror. She was a completely different person. That sweet, innocent girl, whose only goal in life was to make a difference and to help people, was gone. Her goals were done and dead.
    Giving in, Annabella got out of bed, knowing she wouldn’t be able to sleep. She went to her desk, and began to write. Moments passed by before hearing a knock on her door. It was three thirty in the morning, who could possibly be awake at this hour?
    “Come in,” she called in a whisper loud enough for the person behind the door to hear.
    She was surprised to see Aubrey. Her blonde hair was pulled back in a ponytail and she wore a tank top and purple pajama shorts.
    “Hey,” she whispered. She sounded sad. Annabella felt bad. She imagined it couldn’t be easy on her. All of the sudden, her best friend had a complete change of personality. If the roles had been reversed, Annabella assumed she’d act the same way that Aubrey did. Not that she would ever wish what happened to her on anyone, especially not her best friend. 
    “What are you doing up?” Annabella asked, offering her best friend the seat on the futon that was in her room against the wall.
    “I couldn’t sleep. Then I went to the bathroom and saw your light on. Bella I’m so sorry,” she said, surprising Annabella
    “Why are you apologizing?” she asked, confused. If anyone should be apologizing, it was her. Annabella was the one who’d changed. She’s the one that was letting their friendship drift apart.
    “I’ve acted like such a bitch. I know that you never intended to hurt me, or any of us. And I knew that, but that didn’t stop me from treating you so horribly. I’m not going to lie to you, I don’t like how much you’ve changed, and it scares me. You’re not the happy go to girl that you used to be, but I can accept you for who you are. I promise. I just need time to adjust. I don’t want to lose you forever,” Aubrey cried, staring down at her fingers.
    It was shocking for Annabella to see Aubrey in the state she was in. She was usually so put together. She was never afraid to tell you what she was thinking, yet here she was pouring her heart out to Annabella and she seemed to be a tad nervous.
    “Aubrey, I’m not mad, or even upset. I’m mostly just confused. I thought out of everyone that you’d be there for me in my time of need, but you made me feel like such an outsider. You made me feel like everything I was doing was wrong, and you accused me of blowing you off for Travis. I wouldn’t do that. I could never do that. I’ve known Travis for all of five minutes. I’ve known you my whole life. Do you have any idea how much it hurt for all of you to disapprove of the person I’ve become?” Annabella asked, pouring her emotions into each and every word.
    “I’m sorry that I hurt you, I really am.” Aubrey told her, feeling the guilt and shame that came from her hurting the best friend she ever had.
    “Let’s just leave it in the past. We don’t have to spend the next week like this. I mean we might as well spend as much time together as possible, right? You’re leaving in a week’s time,” Annabella said. As hard as seeing her friends was, she loved them deeply and didn’t want to say goodbye yet.
    “Actually we’re not.”
    “What do you mean?” Annabella asked, shocked.
    “Well, it’s summer. Maybe not for you, since you moved and start 3 weeks earlier than us now, but we’re on vacation and we wanted to spend more time with you, your parents even said it was okay. Chelsea, Maxie, Matt and I are all going to stay for a few weeks. Well, that is if it’s okay