opposite wall. If he were alive, none of this would have happened. Iâd been safe with him, for the first and only time in my life. âDoes Molly know?â I asked; I donât know why.
âWe havenât told anyone. Jean-Paul wanted to call Max, but I said to wait for you.â
My lips felt numb and my fingers were icy. I wanted another drink, but I knew that would be a mistake. After Hugo died, Iâd tried drinking myself to sleep every night. Whatever worked, Iâd thought. In India, they give widows opium. I got pretty good at solitary drinking, but I quit when Molly took me into the agency and I had to get up mornings. Hadnât missed it, till now.
The phone rang and Lorna picked up. âHamish Donovan Literary Agency.â She listened for a moment. âNo, sorry, still out. Sheâs got meetings all morning. Iâll tell her you called. . . . No, I donât know anything about it. . . . I will.â She hung up and looked at me. âGordon Hayes. Wants to talk to you about the Animal Planet deal.â
âWhat Animal Planetâoh God. This is a nightmare.â Slowly, so slowly, it was starting to sink in. Iâd known from the first how devastating this disappointment was going to be to my writers. Now I began to realize what it could do to the agency. The victimized clients would blame me. I could lose them all. I could lose Harriet, too. Ever since Molly retired, that tie had been fraying; this could sever it entirely.
I felt assaulted, violated, too shocked even for anger, though that would surely come. But Lorna was looking at me anxiously, and I felt the weight of the silence outside my door. Later, safe in my empty apartment, I would howl and curse and lick my wounds, but right now someone had to deal with this mess, and there was nobody else.
I braced myself. âHow many?â
âBased on the gifts, the voice mail, and this morningâs calls, twelve.â Lorna hesitated. âTwelve we know of.â
Of course; there could be others who hadnât checked in yet. Part of me wanted to curl up in a ball under my desk. Another part of me smacked that part in the face and told it to buck up. Step by step, I told myself. Thatâs how I got through Hugoâs funeral, and if I could get through that, I could get through anything.
âI need a list of the twelve clients, with phone numbers. Then a full client list, also with phone numbers.â
âI thought you might.â She pointed to a file on my desk.
âYouâre a godsend. Ask the others to stay in the office and say nothing to anybody. Iâll see everyone in a little while, including Harriet. Max may want to talk to them, too.â A thought struck me. âWere any of Harrietâs clients involved?â
âNot that we know of.â Lorna edged toward the door, relieved, I suppose, that I hadnât actually dissolved into a puddle.
âAnd get rid of those flowers,â I called after her.
Chapter 7
I Skyped Max. It was early morning in L.A. and he was at his desk, dressed for work in jeans and a graphic tee with a picture of the Brooklyn Bridge on it. Behind him I could just make out a large picture window with a view of Benedict Canyon. His and Barryâs house was a graceful concoction of iron, cement, and glass, cantilevered over the cliff at an angle that defied God and gravity.
Iâd set up my computer at the head of the conference table, where I usually sat. Harriet, Chloe, Jean-Paul, and Lorna sat in a semicircle around me, close together so Max could see us all.
I filled him in. When I finished, there was a long silence. Max looked like heâd broken a tooth.
âWe need those e-mails,â he said at last.
âI know,â I said. âAs soon as we get off Iâm going to start making those calls.â
âForward me the one you got right away.â
âThatâs it?â Jean-Paul burst out.
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