Free White Oblivion by Amirah Bellamy

past week or so.  But let me tell you it’s been happening other places longer than that.  I know ya’ll want to know what it is and I hate to tell you but I don’t have any definitive answers.  I can tell you something about it based on my work and what I’ve decoded thus far, but you each still have to do your own work to figure out for yourselves what it means for you,” Connie began to explain. 
    The instant Connie began asking about the strange things that were going on the energy in the entire room shifted as everyone seemed to be on the edge of their seats eager to hear her thoughts on the matter. 
    I think I even stopped breathing for what seemed like 10 minutes.  I couldn’t believe how much had changed for me in so short a period of time.  For starters, I had no idea when I woke up this morning that the day would unfold as it had.  Since leaving home everything as I knew it had changed.  Then, over the past few days my life had been turned upside down and it was getting crazier by the minute.  What I’d seen and heard over the past several minutes blew my mind and it seemed that there was no way that any of it could be real.  However, I knew that it was real because I was living it.  So I knew that as sure as I was breathing air it was real.
    Though lately, I began to question what was real anyway?  I wondered if what I thought to be real all along was truly real.  Who was to say that what we thought was real truly was.  It could have been just that we were taught and conditioned to believe it to be so. 
    I sat there waiting for Connie to continue with a million questions like that buzzing through my mind a mile a minute.  I didn’t know what to believe anymore.  I didn’t even know whether I believed my own eyes anymore.  For all I know I was dreaming all of this up and had been for some time.  Perhaps I was beginning to wake up and I really was white. 
    Then I began to wonder if maybe I’d been transported to some other time period or some other place.  Maybe life as I knew it really wasn’t.  Who was I anyway?  I’d always felt so out of place anyway.  It seemed the only one who got me was Doran, which was why we were so quickly drawn to one another.  It seemed one day we met and the next we were married almost like it was all one action.  Doran could always answer all of my questions no matter how quirky.  He never judged me for questioning nor did he poke fun at me.  In fact, he seemed to share in my inquisitiveness.  It was a trait that we both had in common among other things. 
    As my mind buzzed with a million thoughts Doran looked over at me as if reading my mind as usual.  He knew what I was thinking and was likely wondering the same things.  Moments seemed like an eternity as we waited for Connie to continue.  She took a long pause before continuing and appeared to be channelling.  She had closed her eyes for a few moments then looked out at us with a dazed look almost as if she was looking past us.  However, the intensity in her stare let us know that all of her attention was directed toward us.  
    As Connie parted her lips to speak I inhaled deeply finally taking a breath and feeling an eerie sense of calm overcome me.  My heart rate slowed, my shoulders relaxed and my jaws loosened and I was open and ready to receive her message.  It was time for the revelation of what I’d been living through over the past few days and everything in me knew it.  I was ready.  In fact, we all were and it could be felt throughout the room as the energy had shifted once again.
     

 
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    The room was quiet enough to hear a pin drop as we all sat on the edge of our seats anticipating what felt like a long awaited revelation.  It was clearly written on everyone’s face that we all just wanted to regain some control over what was happening to us.  We all felt like something else had taken control over our very reality and it was an unwelcomed