my room and stare at my phone for several seconds before pulling up Jasonâs number on my phone. I havenât spent the last ten months thinking about my ex who dumped me before going to college, I swear I havenât. But scrolling through Facebook and Instagram the past couple weeks, knowing my high school friends are all home for the summer, it makes me wish for that life again. Movie dates with my nice boyfriend, weekend trips to the mall with friends, hanging out in my backyard pool with kids from school, with my dad and brothers. I miss the safe familiarity of it.
I stare at Jasonâs number in my phone. On impulse, I hit call. My heart picks up speed. Not out of love exactly, but more like from the guilt that comes with failing to stay away. Iâm about to hang up and text him a âsorry, I butt-dialed youâ excuse, but he answers on the first ring.
âHey, Fin, I was just gonna call you.â
I sink back against my headboard. All the new unfamiliar that came with my hookup with Eddie is erased by this voice that I know so well. It wraps around me like a favorite sweatshirt.
âReally? What for?â
âYour brothersâ birthday party next weekend. I got invited,â he says. âWhat were you calling about?â
I clear my throat. âOhâ¦um, the party. Of course. Gotta make sure we have enough goodie bags.â
God, Iâm lame.
âWell, Iâm willing to sacrifice mine for the greater good if needed.â
âI figured. Hero complex and all that.â I take a breath, trying to be the cool New York City girl most of my friends assume Iâve become. âSoâ¦does that mean youâre coming?â
Heâs my fucking neighbor. Of course heâs coming.
âUh-huh. Iâll stop by for a littleââ
Summer pops her head in my room, a big grin plastered on her face. âWeâre having chicken tonight!â
I gesture to the phone so sheâll shut up, but that only gets her riled up more. âSo, Iâll see you next weekend then, Jason?â
âJason? Oh no. No way.â Summer bounds toward me and snatches the phone from my hand before I can stop her. âHi, Jason. Itâs Summer.â
She moves quickly toward the door. I dive at her, grabbing her around the waist. We both end up tangled together, half in my room, half in the hallway.
âFinleyâs going through a program,â Summer says to Jason. âSheâs not supposed to have contact with people from her past for a while.â
âGive me the fucking phone,â I hiss at her. I reach for it but end up banging my elbow on the doorframe.
âAnd sheâs way too busy having good sex with models to have time for you.â
Oh my God, Iâm gonna kill her.
Summer hangs up on Jason but flips over on her stomach, still scrolling through my phone. âYou need to delete him from your contacts.â
âGive me the damn phone!â I get my fingers on it this time, but her grip is too tight. In a moment of desperation, my other hand stretches toward my desk, feeling around for a pair of scissors. I hook my index finger through the handle and then hold them above Summerâs head.
âThink Prada would mind if you showed up tomorrow with a bald patch?â
Summer looks over her shoulder at me, wide-eyed. âYou bitch.â
âPhone?â I hold out my hand, and she drops it into my palm. Iâm about to let her up when both of us notice Elana and her mom standing in the hallway, staring at us.
Elanaâs mom shakes her head and says something in French. Elana looks us over as if to say and Iâm the one who needs su pervision?
I push off the floor and get to my feet again. Summer does the same. She straightens her clothes, puts every hair back in place. âSomeday, youâll appreciate everything Iâve done for you.â
I glare at her. âNext time, Iâm leaving you alone to