Free Breaking Through the Wall (Guarded Hearts Book 2) by Alexis Noelle

thrusting so hard, using my hips as leverage to get himself deeper into me.
    God , I loved him! Wait. Did I just say I loved him? Fuck my life. I had really gotten myself in deep. A hard smack to my ass jolted me out of my own head. He was driving into me, so hard I could barely see straight.
    “Nic , you feel so fucking good, baby. I’m close. You have been tempting me all night and I can’t hold it much longer.”
    I started to feel that pull again and I knew I was close too. Jason snaked a hand around my waist and started to play with my over sensitive clit. That was it . I started spiraling from my orgasm and after that he called out my name and joined me.
    We collapsed on the bed together and he pulled me over to him, which was something I was still not used to. I was going over everything that happened tonight and I just had to get something off my chest. “Hey, J?”
    “Hmmm, yea h, babe?”
    “What you said earlier about us both being with other people before…I um…I haven’t.”
    He picked his head up and looked at me like I had five heads. Did I come off easy or something? “So, you are saying, before me you never did anything…with anyone?”
    He said it with such astonishment that it pissed me off. I jumped up from the bed and started to get dressed. “You know what , J, screw you. I am not like all of the whores that you had before, and it hurts me that you would immediately assume I was.”
    He reached over , grabbed my hand, and pulled me back down to the bed. “Hey, I wasn’t assuming you were a whore, Nic, I promise. It’s just, you are gorgeous, sexy, and just really fucking amazing. I didn’t think there would have been anyway that no one got to you before I had.” Suddenly, a look of realization flashed across his face. “Wait, so that means your first time was when we were drunk, on New Year’s?” I nodded my head at him.
    He got up from the bed, paced the room for a couple seconds, and then punched the wall , so hard I was surprised he didn’t go right through the drywall. I could see him trying to control the anger that was coursing through his body. I knelt on the bed and reached out to him. “Come here. It’s okay, J, I’m not mad at you. You had no idea, and I should have told you.”
    He sat back down on the bed with me and after he had calmed himself down , turned to face me. “Why didn’t you?”
    I sat up so we were face to face. “I had wanted you from the first time Maddy had introduced us, but you barely gave me the time of day. I didn’t tell you because I wanted it to happen. I felt like if I said something you would have stopped.”
    “Damn right I would have stopped. You deserve so much more than for your first time to have been a drunken night of sex. God , I didn’t even stay the whole night. I am such a dickhead. Nic, I’m sorry.”
    I kissed him because I knew that was the best way to get him to understand that I was ok ay. “It’s fine. Now let’s go to bed.”
    We lay back down and he held me so tight, like he thought I was going to disappear if he let go.
     
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    I started to stay at Jason and Shawn’s on the weekends, mainly because every time I tried to leave, he found a mind-blowing way to convince me to stay. I could feel myself falling in love with him already and it freaked me out because I was scared that he would never feel the same.
    I started to see what Jason was always talking about with Shawn. I always liked him , he was really funny, smart, and he made it easy to be his friend. Jason was right, though, and something was definitely up with him. He was hardly ever home and when he was, he was very distant.
    I couldn’t believe it was Sunday morning and I was up already. My damn internal clock refused to recognize that I was able to sleep late on weekends. J was still sleeping. I had learned that if I woke him up before ten, he was cranky all day. I heard someone coming and when I looked up it was Shawn. Where the hell did he