facing her. Gently he took her hand in his, and while Glenda submitted her arm for inspection, while Tori watched Glenda place her trust in him, the warmth around Toriâs heart grew and grew.
She should be concentrating on Glenda. She wasâsort of. But when heâd taken Glendaâs hand in his, it was as if heâd taken her own.
I could be in huge trouble here, she told herself, feeling dazed. I need to leave, right now. If I stay longerâ¦
But she couldnât leave now.
Jake was holding Glendaâs hand lightly in his, watching Glendaâs face intently. The tension in the elderly womanâs body was palpable. Was she expecting Jake to hurt her?
âIâm not probing,â Jake said softly. âIâm just touching.â He rested her hand in his left hand, and touched her damaged wrist with his right, running his forefinger gently up and down her arm, along her fingers, not pressing, smooth as silk.
âStop me the minute I make you feel uncomfortable or I hurt you,â he told her. âStop me the moment I make anything worse.â
She didnât stop him. He ran his fingers over the back of her palm, over and over, and then cupped her hand and felt that, too. Around her Tori felt the tension ease. Everyone, it seemed, had been holding their breaths. Even Mrs. Matheson, whoâd been clearing coffee cups, had paused, riveted.
âPress my hand,â Jake was saying. âHere. One finger at a time. Can you clench? No? Donât try, then. What does that feel like?â
âLike my hand doesnât belong to me,â Glenda whispered. âLike itâs not thereâonly it is. I can feel it but not like I want to feel it. Sometimes it hurts so much I just want to chop it off. Itâs not mine any more. Itâs not real.â
âIt is real.â
âIâm being stupid,â Glenda said, as finally Jake rested her hand in his again and let it lie.
âNo.â It was such a flat response that Glenda stared. âYouâre not being stupid. How long have you been putting up with pain like this?â
âA while.â
âMonths,â Doreen said dully. âAnd itâs getting worse.â
âBut at the beginning it did seem to get better?â
âYes,â Glenda whispered. âThatâs why itâs stupid. It got better and all the scans are good and the doctors say Iâm cured. Only then the pain startedâ¦â
âIâve seen this before,â Jake said. He was still holding her hand in his, so gently he couldnât possibly be hurting.
âIâm thinking this is something called complex regional pain syndrome,â he said, and it was as if he was alone with Glendaâeveryone else had disappeared. âEverything fits. Youâve had major trauma. So many of the bones and blood vessels and nerves were damaged that often a physical recovery masks more complex nerve problems. The symptoms oftenoccur months after the injury itself. Your hand feels cold and there are areas of sensory blunting. It feels strange and stiff, like it doesnât quite belong to you. And then thereâs the pain. You protect it to stop it hurting, and the more you protect it, the worse it gets. Your fingers are already starting to curl. Itâs hard to make them move.â
âI donât want to move them,â Glenda whispered. âBut itâs only my hand. I was so lucky⦠Iâm better.â
âYouâre not better. You have nerve damage that needs to be addressed,â Jake said sternly, and Glenda blinked and looked at him with something akin to hope.
âThe doctors say thereâs nothing they can do.â
âThat might be because youâve been talking to surgeons,â Jake said. âAnd no, thereâs nothing more surgeons can do. Now itâs time to move to another specialty.â
âLike you?â
âSomeone like me. I canât
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