dream? Really?
It had to be from the guilt of being around Alex. Her mind was on a merry-go-round of emotions but her body just wanted to be sated with hard sex… just enough to stop the craving for a bit. She laughed as she dunked her head underwater and turned to swim back to the other side of the pool again. She was like a drug addict, but with sex and going through withdrawal. Even masturbation couldn’t cure this aficionado. She knew what she needed, but it wasn’t going to happen.
An hour later she finally pulled herself out of the pool and threw the towel around her shoulders as she squeezed the water from her hair. She glanced up at the rising sun and shivered from the cold on her skin. She spun around and swore she saw a flash by a window upstairs, but then figured it was someone just opening the blinds. Shivering from the cold, she hurried back to her apartment. Spring was in the air and soon summer would give way to warm mornings and hot days. It couldn’t come soon enough.
A hot shower and some breakfast later, she grabbed her cell and sent Nicholas a text to see if he wanted to do dinner one night this week. During her shower, she made the decision that she needed to move forward, and away from Alex. They were not going to have a relationship and the sooner she moved forward, the better she would feel… and the more sleep she would get without ridiculously hot dreams.
She stared at her closet. She had a fantastic new wardrobe but nothing to wear on a date. Alex had given her a work bonus and she decided it was time to spend it on herself. She was going to go shopping for some clothes she could actually fit into that were not work related. It’d been years since she had gone clothes shopping, but with her old clothes big, stretched and boring, she suddenly had the urge to shop. She would need something nice to wear when she went out with Nicholas. That was all the excuse she needed.
She hit the new outside mall Alex had taken her to and window shopped as she looked for something that struck her as pretty. She never owned pretty clothes, or sexy ones. She grinned, maybe she needed to hit a Victoria’s Secret and buy some other pretty things. She grinned. She’d do that first.
As she shopped through bra and pantie sets, she picked out a black set, a white one, an incredible sexy lace one she knew she’d never wear, and a soft silky pink set. When she tried them on, they made her feel pretty and even a little sexy in the reflection of the mirror. She had the feeling the shop set the mirrors to give her a skinny look. She wasn’t complaining, she didn’t mind at all.
She also bought a couple pairs of silk nighties and a robe to wear inside her apartment. Happy, she stepped back outside with her purchases and walked around the shops again.
Nicholas sent her a text to say he’d love to do dinner and whenever she was available, he’d make sure he was as well.
She smiled.
He seemed nearly perfect. He was charming and handsome, the money side of him was also slightly attractive. She tried to pretend it wasn’t, but the thought of never having to worry about paying a bill, or shopping whenever she felt like it, how could that not be tempting? There wasn't anything fake about him, unlike her last boyfriend, Stephen, and he seemed to want a real relationship with her, unlike Alex. However, she couldn't seem to rouse more than a slightly pleasant feeling every time she thought about him. That's what Nicholas made her feel. Pleasant. Relaxed. Not all hot and fiery, full of passion. Like Alex does.
Jamie cursed at herself. There she was, thinking about Alex again, even after she swore not to. It had to stop right then and there. No Alex today. No more thinking about men in general. This was going to be a Jamie day. She rolled her eyes. She’d never had a personal day in her life. Then again, with her in the hot seat with her sister’s wedding, she might as well enjoy the day before everything hit the