imminent arrival while facing the potential euthanizing of my cat. Love and death donât go together. They just donât. I take the ice cream off the toaster and dump it into a bowl. Then I take a piece of paper and write my name as legibly and sexily as possible: Molly Weller . After covering it in clear packing tape, I place it in the bottom of the pint. Using a black pen, I write the instructions on the inside of the lid: Youâll have to eat it all if you want to go to the Sweetheart Ball with â¦I hope after he reads it he doesnât hesitate with his answer. I imagine one word falling out of his mouth over and over: Yes. Yes. Yes.
After putting the ice cream back in the freezer and reassuring myself eighteen times that Ruthann canât kill my cat, I am still freaked out that this might actually happen. The stress inside me continues to build. Tate will be here any minute and my mother isnât back yet. My mind wonât stop, and begins to play a motion picture of my future. After killing Hopkins, Ruthann kicks me off the squad. Iâm isolated. Rejected. Alone. I consider dropping out of high school. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. A mountain getaway with my long-term crush should scream ROMANCE, not ANXIETY.
I try my hardest to put the Hopkins fear in a box. Then I go to my bedroom and fluff my hair for the twentieth time and make sure that Iâve got breath mints in my purse. Some things in life are beyond my control, but my breath is not one of those things. If I do kiss Tate, I want it to be like my kiss with Henry. When his lips met mine, everything in the world dissolved except for us. And then it was as if we were collapsing into each other. It was so amazing. I think about it. And think about it. I really need to stop thinking about it.
When I hear my mother pull into the garage, Iâm relieved, but also worried. I donât want to tell her about the Hopkins situation. I return to the kitchen. Addressing the Hopkins situation might unhinge me all over again. Iâm not going to bring it up. But when my mother enters the house carrying my boots, she looks upset. She must know.
âIâve already heard,â she says. âJudy Culpepper called my cell.â
âCan we talk about it after my date?â I say.
âShe claims that Hopkins committed an unprovoked attack against her daughter,â she says.
I guess we are going to talk about it before my date.
âWhat are we going to do?â I ask.
She sets her purse down on the counter and hands me the boots. They look like theyâve got cow crap on them.
âI told her weâd pay for any medical expenses.â
I shake my head. âAll she has is a few stupid scratches.â
âReally? On the message her mother said that Hopkins severely bit her thumb.â
âShe squeezed him too tightly. And then she hit him! And then she tried to steal him. Sheâs crazy!â My face feels hot, and Iâm shouting.
âDonât yell at me. This isnât my fault. Youâre the one who dropped Sadie and picked Ruthann, out of all the possible friends in the area.â
I donât want to talk about Sadie, so I focus on Ruthann. âI didnât know she was crazy,â I say.
âThey usually donât wear signs.â
Hopkins doesnât like all this hubbub. He walks into the room and then leaves.
âWeâll talk it over with your father.â
âShe wants to have him euthanized.â
My mother rolls her eyes. âI doubt it will come to that.â
Except for using the word doubt , she sounds pretty certain. This calms me. I sit and slide the boots on one at a time. Theyâre snug, but I think theyâre supposed to be. My mother reaches down and brushes my bangs off my forehead. This is my chance to open up and tell her a little bit about whatâs going on with Joy and Ruthann. And fill her in on the nut shop story. The firing. But I
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