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make sure his
buckles aren’t too tight once he is inside, but ensure they are just tight
enough.
    He’s a tiny boy, only a little over
five pounds, so I want to make sure that he is warm enough. Mom says it’s June
so only a light blanket will do.
    I make Ryan and Alexis turn the AC
to low on our drive home. Its 100 degrees today. They don’t complain once.
    When we get home, I open all the
window’s to allow fresh air. Mom came by and cleaned the house and it is still
slightly fumy. Although no one claims to smell it.
    I am breastfeeding so other than
diaper changes and burping, no one can really help out. But they are all there.
Ryan, Adam, Alexis and mom.
    I ask Ryan how he was able to be
around so much. He told me that while he still makes the decisions. (Which
explains the 900 cell phone calls a day) he was right where he needs to be.
    That meant a lot to me.
    Josslyn meeting Landon for the
first time, will always be one of my most favorite life moments.
    She came plowing in the house, with
Jaxon behind her telling “shh baby, he might be sleeping.” She’s all dolled up
in a party dress with a big bow in her hair.
    When she sees Landon, who is
currently being held by Adam she gets super excited “Hi baby.” She says she
walks up to him slowly and rubs the fuzz on his head “sweet baby.” Her little
voice is in awe then she looks over at me “can Landon come outside and build a
castle with me Auntie Olivia?”
    Everyone starts to laugh.
    “Not just yet babe.” Jaxon says
    She loses interest in him quickly
after that. She ends up in her old room, which is now Landon’s room until we
show her that her new room is now where my office is.
    Jaxon holds Landon. He’s happy for
me, but he’s not happy that we haven’t heard from Dean. No one brings him up
though. It’s hard not to think of him. Landon has dark blonde hair, unlike my
chestnut brown. He also has piercing blue eyes that are his dad’s without a
doubt.
    It is hard to look into his face
and see Dean. It’s hard for me, but it is hard for those around me who feel
that he should be here.
    Mom is staying with Landon and I.
Alexis is staying with Ryan for a few days.
    I enjoy moms help. Honestly I don’t
know how I would do any of it without her. I had experience with Josslyn, but
something about it being your own baby makes everything so intimidating.
    She has to remind me not to wake
him up. She caught me a few time lighting pinching his leg to try and stir him
awake. Or holding my finger beneath his nose feeling for air flow to make sure
he was still breathing.
    Being a first time mom is the
scariest and most amazing thing you will ever do. Nothing can describe it.
    The first night home with Landon is
eventful, he wakes up every two hours. I don’t mind. I love being with him. Mom
changes him and burps him so that I can get back to sleep once he’s done
feeding.
    From there on out it’s pretty easy.
I don’t need mom to get up with me after the first few nights. She sticks
around during the day and helps me clean and wash laundry, but Landon and I
have a schedule pretty quickly. It’s not set in stone of course, but he doesn’t
really keep me running too hard. I sleep when he sleeps, I eat when he is done
eating. It works.

Chapter 22
    Ryan comes barging in one Saturday
morning. His face bright red, full of anger
    “He’s in town.” His voice is laced
with venom
    “Who?” I laugh, sealing the bag of
expressed milk for storage
    “Dean, who do you think?” He
retorts
    I nearly drop the plastic bag “What
do you mean he’s in town?”
    “I mean, one of my associates saw
him and Stella at the Fire Station last night. He’s in town, as in he’s here
and apparently from what I am gathering he has been for a while.”
    I can’t say anything. I feel like
someone has closed off my airway. He’s here. He’s been here. Our son is nearly
a month old, and has never met his father. His father who is in the same town
at this very