Conjuring images of audience participation and Marcel Marceau.
âYou wouldnât be expected to act, you oaf.â Teoâs face had the expression it wore when he was about to pass the ball. âWhy donât you come with us? We just need an extra body, Peter. Itâs hard to visit East Germany unless you have connections. You could dig out your father, extend the search.â
âLet me think about this,â said Peter.
Teo tilted back his head and regarded the poster of Johnny Rotten, his eyes skirting over the upside-down Wehrmacht insignia safety-pinned to Rottenâs waistcoat and coming to rest on the coloured print of Bedevere above Peterâs desk. âListen, if you canât pull it off I know someone I can ask.â
âWait, when is this?â
âLeave Thursday, back Monday morning. We can sort out the visa tomorrow.â
Peter glanced at the five textbooks â one chemical, one zoological and three botanical â that he planned to have read by Monday. âOh, shit. I couldnât â even if I wanted to. This is the weekend of Anitaâs wedding.â
Anita, Peterâs German girlfriend of two years, was playing bridesmaid for her colleague, a teacher at the same kindergarten. All month she had attended fittings and returned with Polaroids of herself holding up yards of salmon-coloured satin. Peter pretended to be interested, but the whole business bored him to death.
âOh, right,â nodded Teo, âthe wedding where Anita will catch the bouquet, hell or high water?â
âSheâs already caught the bouquet,â sighed Peter. âItâs in a vase beside her bed.â
Teo chuckled and stood up. âYou donât stand a fucking chance. Listen, I refuse to get in the way of your audition. Iâm going to find a free man instead.â
âNo, donât!â The invitation to bolt, to leave behind Anita and the wedding feast in Blankenese was exhilaratingly tempting. âIâll go. I can do it.â
They looked at each other. âAre you sure?â said Teo. âI donât want to be held responsible for what Thomas and Michael might do . . .â Anitaâs hulking elder brothers, crew-cut engineers, played in the same soccer team.
âTheyâre OK. Iâll just have to figure out what Iâm going to tell Anita.â
Teo opened the door and stopped. âRemind me â whoâs that?â
âSir Bedevere.â
âKing Arthur stuff?â
âThe guy with the sword.â
âOh, that guy.â
Long after Teo had left the room, Peter continued to look at the face of the medieval knight. As he brushed his teeth, he murmured to the mirror in English:
âWhat saw you there? said the king.
Sir, he said, I saw nothing but waves and winds.â
Minutes later he switched off the light. If he could do this, obviously he didnât love Anita. If he loved her, he wouldnât consider abandoning her on a day when, as she had made very clear, she needed him. But German girls were stoics. She wouldnât make a fuss. She would understand about his father. It was a while before he slept.
Following his anatomy class next morning, he went with Teo to a studio on the corner of Bellevue, on the top floor of an old house overlooking the Alster. A large light room of blues and yellows fitted with a stainless-steel counter and with an upstairs gallery reached by a spiral staircase.
The room had been cleared to make a stage. Two actors, sitting on stools, rehearsed before a cubicle assembled from sheets of corrugated plastic and hung with a green curtain. Peter leaned against the wall to watch, but what they were doing seemed incomprehensible to him.
A dogâs basket lay at his feet, and tidied onto a davenport-style desk with barley-sugar legs were the traces of a womanâs presence. A bright orange bra. A straw boater like one he used to wear at St Cross. A