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meetings.
âSo, Miriam, howâs it going?â
Obviously weâre going to play some kind of game for a while. âGoodâ is a good-enough answer for now. I pick up a blue pillow my mom would buy and immediately put it back where I found it. My mom is going to erupt when she finds out. Sheâs going to make me hold up that sculpture up for the rest of my life. Iâm going to take out loans for the Picasso while everybody else goes to college.
âI called you in here so we could talk a little. Do you want to tell me whatâs on your mind?â
Ms. K stays quiet, which makes me extremely uncomfortable, which makes me sweat even more. Sipping my tea would help, but itâs unbearably hot, so I just cup it in my hand and look around for a place to set it. Would StyroÂfoam stain the side table? Can I put cream in green tea? This is the stuff we need to know, what they should be teaching us in school. I take a breath. She seems serious about wanting to know whatâs on my mind.
âIâm just not sure what Iâm supposed to say.â
âRight,â she answers patiently, like sheâs been trained. âYou can start with anything you want. Do you know why youâre here?â
I have some guesses, but Iâm not quite ready to share them. I shrug.
âDo you have any questions?â she says.
Sure. For instance, who exactly called you and what did they say? Are you familiar with Picasso? Have you ever been to the organ rehearsal at the National Cathedral? Is your period always regular? Do you know Elliot?
âWhere did you go to college?â I ask.
Ms. K looks a little surprised, but she quickly gets it together again.
âMaryland. University of Maryland. Not too far from here.â
I comb through my mascot inventory, one of Dad âs favorite car games.
âThe tortoises?â
âTerrapins,â she says.
She sips her tea, so I sip mine. Iâm good at stalling.
Ms. K tells me about the process without really telling me what weâre processing. I nod along, and she appreci ates the gesture. Itâs pleasant and informative. She says sheâs spoken to my teachers, who all agree that Iâm talented and smart. Thatâs nice. I still donât know why Iâm here, and Iâm not about to ask. She has not mentioned a call from a woman named Paloma yet.
âSo, Ms. D told me you were late to the bus on Friday ⦠â
Ah-ha. I stay silent. I have a strategy, and Iâm going to stick with it.
âShe said you felt sick. Are you all right now?â
âYes.â
âI think she was worried when she couldnât reach you.â
âIâm sorry. I should have called.â
âShe was a little overwhelmed that day.â
Ms. K might be baiting me.
âWhyâs that?â I ask.
âTurns out it was nothing.â
Now thatâs definitely bait. Thereâs something sheâs keeping from me. We sit for a long time, long enough to feel uncomfortable, like I should move another pillow or something.
It becomes impossible not to speak.
âWhat did the other teachers say?â I ask.
She looks at me again, and again, she waits.
âYou said you spoke to all my teachers ⦠â
âYes. Thatâs right. Most of them said that last year you had a bit of a dip in your grades, but youâve pulled them back up,â she says.
That I have.
âSome say youâre quiet, a lot more reserved.â
This cannot be enough reason to speak to a counselor. Ms. K is full of shit.
âMaybe I grew up,â I say, shrugging.
âMaybe you did,â she says, almost irritated but not yet.
âDo you have another degree?â I ask.
This time, sheâs not surprised at all.
âYes,â she says. âI have a Masterâs.â
âIn counseling?â
âNo, social work.â
âThe Terrapeens.â
âTerrapins. I got my