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doing this,” she said as she slid onto my lap.”Drew will find out.”
    “Let him,” I said carelessly as my lips brushed hers.
    She got up suddenly, “Kat,” I whined.
    “Soon,” she whispered. “He can’t play this forever, we both know he will mess up and you’ll be there, to conveniently pick up the pieces.”
    I smiled; it was what we had been speaking about for the last month, her and I together. We both wanted it, but it wasn’t so simple. First we had to get Drew to leave her, make him look like the bad guy.
    “Kat”, I said following her to the door. I pushed myself against her so that her back went against the wall; her hand framed my face as I kissed her. “Marry me, Kat, fuck it all.”
    “Soon,” she whispered again, moving away from me, leaving me alone in the room.
    Soon couldn’t come fast enough.
     
    Kat
    April 1985
    I had inconveniently discovered the misfortune of being wanted by more than one man at once and I loved it. I had Drew, there was no question about that. And Shane? Definitely had hooked him. Thomas? He would always want me it would seem. I was envied for it and I fully basked in the glory of what I had accomplished. Three strings for three men who had literally become my puppets over lust. I only wanted one. Shane. I’d have him, eventually. We devised plans, secret meetings, nothing going past a quick kiss. I cared for Drew, but it was a mistake. He killed whatever feeling I really had for him back when he betrayed my girlish thoughts and feelings. Whatever Shane wanted to do to make this happen, whatever he had to do to make this happen would cost us more than what we were willing to risk. Or so I was afraid would happen.
    “Hey,” Drew said casually, walking into our hotel room.
    I raised an eyebrow, smiling as he came in to kiss me.
    “Mmm,” he murmured, taking one finger and peaking down my shirt.
    I swatted him away. “No not right now, I’m trying to read this.”
    “Come one, Kat. If you’re gonna be with me, you gotta let me have it when I want it, that’s not fair.”
    “Or what?” I asked
    “Or… uhhhh, I don’t know, Kat. Just come on.”
    He placed my hand over his crotch where his cock was swelling.
    “Drew, I can’t. I’m meeting Thomas in like ten minutes and…”
    “Seriously?”
    “Yes,” I responded soundly.
    “Fine,” he said, backing away from me. “Go on and fuck Thomas, see if I care.”
    “I’m not gonna fuck him!” I stated, but he didn’t even seem to hear me. I watched him slam the door to the bathroom before I put my book down and left.
    I wasn’t even angry. I was just… aggravated in a new and horrible way that made my patience so thin.
    I walked down the hall and knocked on Thomas’ door.
    “Come in!” he shouted.
    I walked in, he was still getting dress.
    I stared at him, I wasn’t sure what came over me, but as I observed his body, with his thick arms and chiseled chest with small hairs curling, I felt something I hadn’t felt before.
    “Can you stop for a second?” I said in a mix of frustration.
    “Why?’ he asked, stopping.
    I walked right up to him facing him.
    “Kiss me,” I said as a sudden wanting I had not experienced before came over me.
    “Woah, what… why?”
    “Don’t question it, Tom, please just do it.”
    He rolled his eye and put his lips to mine. Electricity ran through me as nature seemed to take over. I had to pull away before…
    Knock knock knock
    “Fuck,” Thomas whispered not looking me in the eye.
    I glanced quickly at him before looking through the peep hole where I saw James and Ian at the door, waiting for Thomas and me to join them for our practice session.
    “Just a minute,” I shouted.
    I went over to Thomas who was standing with his head in his hands.
    “Why, Kat? Why do you do this to me?”
    “I don’t know… I’m sorry...”
    “Like, what were you even thinking? What were we even thinking?”
    Knock knock knock.
    “We’re going down to the bar to wait