am now.â Lucien ignored her as he continued his housekeeping promenade, and she decided that in this particular instance, surrender was the better part of valor. âIâm sorry.â She tried to think of a bright side. âIf itâs any consolation, Val had you figured out before I opened my mouth. He doesnât fool easily.â
âThatâs all right. I love a challenge.â Lucien gave a chair one last shove-into-place. âI need to get back to Sheridan.â He headed for the door, but at the last moment he slowed, then turned and approached the couch. âYou want him to be real, donât you?â Sunshine streamed through the skylight, lightening his hair until it looked as white as Johnâs. âThe hybrid boy. You want him to be real and youâre afraid that heâs not.â
Jani opened her mouth to protest, but no words emerged. As usual, Lucien got right to the heart of the matter, then grabbed and twisted. âItâs a mistake to get oneâs hopes up,â she said after a time. âI learned that the hard way.â
âIf itâs any consolation, two hybrids would upset people twice as much as one.â Lucien drew alongside the couch, then leaned over. âEven more than that, considering that one is you.â He kissed her, softly at first, then not softly at all, leaving her breathless as he slipped away without another word.
âAu revoir, mon capitain.â Jani regarded the closed door as the minutes passed, and gradually another sensation took hold. Less painful than love, less urgent than lust, yet in its own way as implacable, as undeniable.
She held up her hand, imagined the hybrid boyâs still hanging in the air before her. Saw them meet, felt warm flesh instead of cool light. Pressed hard, palm against palm, finger against finger, each matching as though they mirrored one another.
âI always wondered what it would have been like to have a brother.â She lay there, holding her hand in place until sleep claimed her.
CHAPTER 5
A muddle of images. Wodeâs face as he turned to the sound of Pullmanâs shout, melting into that of Feres, the dead Vynshà rau.
A sound. A name. Her name.
Jani.
Feresâs face shortening. Widening. The eyes altering from gold to green, sclera paling, whitening, changingâ
Jani?
âto a face she knew well though sheâd seen it only once. A young face with filmed eyes, humanish films that covered, but not well enoughâ
âJani.â
Jani opened her eyes.
âJesus, gel.â Niall Pierce released a shaky sigh. âYou werenât waking up and you werenât waking up. I thought Iâd have to call Shroud.â He sat on the edge of the low table, one hand braced on the couch cushion near Janiâs head. âIâve been jawing at you for five minutesâdidnât you hear me?â
âI fellââ Jani stared above her head at the view through the skylight, and saw only dark slate grey where thereâd once been sunlit blue. âOh, damn.â
âOh damn is right.â Niall sat back, his expression lightening as he realized she was conscious and aware of her surroundings. âItâs a little after nineteen. You slept most of the day away.â He offered a fangy grin. âJoin the club. I called Pullâs folks from the doctorsâ lounge, then sat back to take a breather. Too many hours laterâ¦â He shook his head. âOne of the neuros ordered them to let me sleep. Damned augie. After I woke up, I shambled to the office. Far North Lakeside was a beehive, of course. Sat through nine meetings in as many hours, then decided the hell with it and bolted.â
Jani tossed back her coat, which had served as a coverlet, and slowly sat up. âHowâs Pull?â
âAwake, but bleary.â Niall reached into his shirt pocket and pulled out his nicstick case. âDoesnât remember