never missed dinner before.
âWhy did he take her?â wailed Sian.
âHer white fur,â said my father.
âWhat for?â
âThatâll make a pair of mittens.â
Then Sian banged her forehead on the table and howled.
âThatâs quite enough, Sian,â said my father. But my mother put an arm around her, and Sian buried her face in my motherâs lap.
After dinner, Sian and Tanwen hunted for Spitfire everywhere, even in the stables. I kept hearing them calling for her, and Sian went right round the village asking if anyone had seen her.
âPointless!â said Serle.
âNo,â said my mother, âshe may not find her, but itâs not pointless, Serle.â
When we were alone, I asked my mother about Merlin.
âHe came to live here soon after you were born,â she said. âTwelve years ago now. Your father made an agreement with him, and rented him his cottage and croft.â
âWhere did he come from?â
âMerlin keeps himself to himself,â my mother said, and she shook her head.
âWhat about his family?â
My mother shook her head again. âI donât know much of his story,â she said.
âOliver hates him,â I said. âHe says Merlin may be the son of his own sister. Or a nun and an incubus!â
My mother screwed up her eyes. âShame on him! Thatâs dangerous talk, and he doesnât know anything about it.â
âYou like Merlin,â I said.
âSo do your father and Nain. Merlinâs Welsh and wise, and he makes me laugh.â
âAnd me,â I said.
âHe has always cared for you,â my mother said.
âWhy?â
âI donât know. Youâre always asking questions and theyâre as hard as nutshells.â
âMother,â I began, âdo you know what my fatherâs plans are? For me? He does want me to be a knight, doesnât he? He will let me go away into serviceâ¦â
My mother gave her quick little nod which doesnât mean yes and doesnât mean no, but means she is listening very carefully. Then she spread her right hand like a comb and ran it backwards through my hair.
âHe hasnât got another plan, has he?â
âArthur!â said my mother, and gently, quite firmly, she pressed her warm hand down on the top of my head.
âWill you ask him to talk to me?â I said. âPlease will you?â
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LUKE
T HE MOST PRECIOUS GIFT IN OUR LIVES,â LADY Alice said once, âis good health.â
She told me she used to have stiff fingers and stiff toes, but now she always keeps a hareâs foot in one pocket, and each day she rubs it along the joints.
So when Merlin gave me my ice-and-fire stone and said itâs the most precious thing I will ever own, was he giving me good health?
If so, I wish I could share it with Luke. Today is his name day but he blew bubbles and whimpered all morning. Saint Luke was a physician, and he must have had good health himself because Oliver says he lived for eighty-four years, but he doesnât seem to be able to hear our prayers for my brother.
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POOR STUPID
I âLL HELP YOU,â I TOLD GATTY. âI DONâT MIND.â
I do mind, though. I mind Serleâs hot words and my fatherâs cold silences. I mind the way my father doesnât understand me. I mind how a pigâs eyelashes go on twitching.
But I think itâs unfair of Hum to make Gatty do all the mucky work, like debloating the cows and shoveling up the afterbirths and digging out the latrines, so that is why I sometimes offer to help her.
First, our pig-man Dutton tied a rope to one of Stupidâs back legs, and Stupid snuffled and snorted because he thought Dutton was taking him to root for beech mast. Dutton always puts the pigs on long tethers because otherwise they might stray too far into the forest.
But when Dutton and Giles took hold of his collar and led him in