Donât lay a guilt trip on me.â
In Tamayoâs apartment, I offered him a seat at the kitchen table and a beer. I got one for me too, and sat down across from him.
âYou got a name?â
âNadia may have given you my code name â¦â
âShe didnât give you any name.â
âRocky.â
âRocky, would you feel better if we called the cops? You could file a missing persons report â¦â
âNot yet.â
âWhy?â
âItâll ruin everything,â he said. He took a Marlboro out of a slightly crumpled soft pack and said, âDo you have a match?â
âNo,â I said. âAnd yes, I mind if you smoke.â
âNo matches?â he said.
âNo.â
âOh damn,â he said, and muttered something, low, in some other language as he patted his pockets looking for a match. He was so nervous and fidgety. I had a feeling that his nic fit would end up being more annoying than his smoking, so I relented and said, âWait ⦠Nadia left some behind.â
âNadia left matches? Nadia doesnât smoke.â
âShe was using them as a bookmark.â
I found the book, Man Trap , on the loft bed and brought the matches to Rocky.
As he lit the cigarette, I said, âWhy will the cops ruin everything?â
He exhaled his smoke but said nothing.
âBecause of the arranged marriage thing, and her family making trouble?â I asked.
âIt is a dangerous situation.â
âYeah, I understand. Iâve heard about things like this, girls from closed cultures who marry against the familyâs wishes and bring dishonor on the clan, et cetera, and their families hunt them down. Is this the case here?â
âSomething like that.â
That was a problem. Thereâd been a lot of stories in the last few years about women running away to western countries, seeking asylum to avoid arranged marriages or charming cultural practices like genital mutilation, only to be deported and returned to their homelands. There, they were either married off against their will or, on occasion, killed by their responsible male relatives for bringing dishonor on them. The cops might just give Nadia away to Immigration, and I didnât want to be responsible for that. On the other hand, a man was dead.
âI still think you should call the cops. I can give you the name of a very understanding woman who will do her best to keep it on the QT,â I said. âA man has been murdered already. Murdered. There could be a connection. Maybe Nadia saw something and the killer or killers know that. I ⦠I donât want to alarm you, but what if they kidnapped her? Even if they didnât, what if her family found her and grabbed her? The police might be able to help.â
âToo much risk. I know in my heart Nadia is okay. She may have seen the police here after this person was killed, and decided to stay away until things calmed down,â he said.
âMaybe youâre right,â I said. âSheâs probably just hiding out until things cool down.â
âBut where?â he asked. âYou are quite sure you donât know where she has gone?â
âWe didnât talk much. Itâs an accident that we both ended up in Tamayoâs apartment at the same time. You see, my apartment burned downââ
âDid she talk about me?â
âNot much, but what she said was very flattering.â
Love isnât just blind, I thought, itâs been sniffing glue! Nadia saw him as a poetic, romantic, yearning, soulful man, whereas I saw a low-wattage half man with all the physical charm of John Gotti, Jr. Obviously, Nadia had projected some false romantic illusions onto this boy while in the grip of her hormones.
âWhere were you while Nadia was here? Maybe sheâs gone there, and youâre just missing each other.â
âI slept in ⦠a park.â
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