cologne, a blur of a smile. His hands were gentle as he swept her back intothe waltz. âJustâtry to smile, and no one will notice anything happened. James and I are practically interchangeable in the public consciousness anyway.â
âJamesâleft,â Cordelia said, in shock.
âI know,â said Matthew. âVery bad form. One should not leave a lady on the dance floor unless something is actually on fire. Iâll have a word.â
âA word,â Cordelia echoed. She was beginning to feel less stunned and more angry. âA word ?â
âSeveral words, if it will make you feel better?â
âWho is she?â Cordelia said. She almost didnât want to ask, but it was better to know the truth. It was always better to know the truth.
âHer name is Grace Blackthorn,â said Matthew quietly. âShe is the ward of Tatiana Blackthorn, and they have just come to London. Apparently she grew up in some hole in the country in Idrisâthatâs how James knows her. They used to cross paths in the summers.â
It is a girl who does not live in London, but she is about to arrive here for an extended stay.
Cordelia felt sick to her stomach. To think she had thought that Lucie was talking about her . That James could have felt those feelings about her .
âYou look ill,â Matthew observed. âIs it my dancing? Is it me personally?â
Cordelia drew herself up. She was Cordelia Carstairs, daughter of Elias and Sona, one of a long line of Shadowhunters. She was the inheritor of the famous sword Cortana, which had been passed down through the Carstairs family for generations. She was in London to save her father. She would not fall apart in public.
âPerhaps Iâm nervous,â she said. âLucie did say you didnât like many people.â
Matthew gave a sharp, startled laugh, before schooling his face back into a look of lazy amusement. âDid she? Lucieâs a chatterbox.â
âBut not a liar,â she said.
âWell, fear not. I do not dislike you. I hardly know you,â said Matthew. âI do know your brother. He made my life miserable at school, and Christopherâs, and Jamesâs.â
Cordelia looked over at James and Grace reluctantly. They made a stunning picture, his dark hair and her fair icicle beauty. Like ashes and silver. How, how, how could Cordelia ever have thought someone like James Herondale would be interested in someone like her?
âAlastair and I are very different,â Cordelia said. She didnât want to say more than that. It felt disloyal to Alastair. âI like Oscar Wilde, for instance, and he does not.â
The corner of Matthewâs mouth curled up. âI see you go directly for the soft underbelly, Cordelia Carstairs. Have you really read Oscarâs work?â
âJust Dorian Gray ,â Cordelia confessed. âIt gave me nightmares.â
âI should like to have a portrait in the attic,â Matthew mused, âthat would show all my sins, while I stayed young and beautiful. And not only for sinning purposesâimagine being able to try out new fashions on it. I could paint the portraitâs hair blue and see how it looks.â
âYou donât need a portrait. You are young and beautiful,â Cordelia pointed out.
âMen are not beautiful. Men are handsome,â objected Matthew.
âThomas is handsome. You are beautiful,â said Cordelia, feeling the imp of the perverse stealing over her. Matthew was looking stubborn. âJames is beautiful too,â she added.
âHe was a very unprepossessing child,â said Matthew. âScowly, and he hadnât grown into his nose.â
âHeâs grown into everything now,â Cordelia said.
Matthew laughed, again as if he was surprised to be doing it. âThat was a very shocking observation, Cordelia Carstairs. I amshocked.â But his eyes were dancing.