Free Do You Remember the First Time? by Jenny Colgan

thought I reminded him of someone but he couldn’t quite place me.
    Beside him there was someone who could have been me but was not me. It was the woman from the flat. She was looking nervous, and fiddling with her spectacles.
    ‘I mean,’ he was saying, ‘you’ve got to care about getting it right. It’s your responsibility. You’re not just letting the company down, you’re letting yourself down. You’ve got a long career ahead of you here, and you want to make a success of it.’
    ‘Yes, sir,’ said the woman. But just as she said it, for a split second she caught my eye, and I sensed I saw in her a desperate wish for flight. She looked at me, and for a moment I think she wished she was me, a teenager bumming around with nothing much to do. If only she knew.
    Lunchtime came and went, after I found a pound in my coat, and was thankful teenagers in McDonald’s weren’t exactly a rarity. I’d spent the day tramping the London streets, my thoughts exhausted. I just didn’t know what to do. I didn’t want to go home. I didn’t want to give in; to admit that I was trapped. Not only trapped, but trapped with people I didn’t know, in a time that didn’t belong to me. Sighing heavily, I found my tired feet heading down to Waterloo. To Tashy’s office.
    I was trying to get it straight in my head. There was only one me. I was … a bit different. But it was possible thatTashy wouldn’t be there either. Every time I’d had a problem, for most of our lives I’d always taken it to her. We’d laughed and talked about every single thing that had ever happened to each of us for practically as long as I can remember, and she’d made me feel better every single time. I was an only child, and Heather was a witch, and school was no picnic, so we were closer than sisters.
    I went down outside the huge office, terrified she wouldn’t be in this strange new world, and sat on a bench, sadly watching people pour out, looking cold, tired, defeated as they tried to raise their spirits enough to manage the long commute home.
    My eyes were so blurred with tears, weariness and fear that at first I didn’t notice her. Then I became aware of somebody sitting next to me. I turned, slowly, scarcely able to believe that somebody I knew so well was right there. And she would never know it was me. Not only that, but she was crying too.
    Tashy sniffed loudly. I stared at her from out of the corner of my eye. My heart was thudding like a drum. It took every ounce of strength I had not to leap on her and smother her with kisses.
    ‘Sorry to bother you,’ I said, which sounded ridiculously weird. ‘Are you alright?’
    She turned round and, I swear to God, she nearly leaped straight up in the air.
    ‘Oh my God,’ she said, trying to catch her breath. I kept looking at her, feeling as miserable as I ever had in my life.
    ‘I’m sorry, but you look just like a friend of mine. Sorry, it’s the strangest thing.’
    ‘What’s your friend like?’ I asked, my heart racing suddenly.
    ‘Oh, it doesn’t matter. You’re much younger than her.’
    ‘Is … what’s her name?’
    Tashy stood up, roughly rubbing her eyes. She was looking paler than of late – must be all the subsequent sunbed sessions. Her small solitaire ring glinted sadly.
    ‘Why?’
    I swallowed hard. ‘Tashy.’
    ‘How do you know my name?’ she said, suddenly looking very frightened.
    ‘Please …’ I said. ‘Flora …’
    ‘What’s going on here?’ She looked around her, holding on very tightly to her handbag.
    ‘When did you last see her?’ I croaked. My heart was in my throat and I could hardly get the words out.
    ‘What’s going on?’ Tashy peered at me. ‘What have you done? The likeness is unbelievable.’
    I heaved a big sigh. I couldn’t believe somebody recognised me. Or, she didn’t yet, but she would.
    ‘Look. This is going to be really difficult to explain.’
    ‘Are you a gang of fiendishly evil Eastern Europeans who have kidnapped