Free Desired Affliction by C.A. Harms Page A

message.
    Lexi---I miss you like crazy
    She has no idea what she has done to me…how much I think
about her. How when I hear her voice it seems to make a bad day great. I never
wanted the girlfriend thing. I enjoyed my freedom and the random parties with
no string attached sex.
    There was something about Lexi that drew me in. Yeah the
fact that I knew her when she was younger and how much she had changed was the
initial attraction. I mean she is hot and she has that sexy appeal that I have
to admit now felt like it clawed at me every time I seen her. My first
attraction was definitely physical I wanted to be with her so badly. It became
a flirting game and her bitchy attitude just made me want her more. Every time
she pushed away well it made me try harder until I started noticing the
signs…the heartache. Things changed and I found myself looking at her
differently. I wanted to know her…and protect her. I wanted to be that guy that
could make her smile and laugh.
    I wanted to call her…I wanted to hear her voice.
    I stood in my parent’s driveway and dialed her number.
She answered after the third ring…
    ‘Hi’ damn she sounded so sweet.
    ‘Hey baby, I wanted to call you and let you know I just
made it home…I miss you too. I still say you should have come home with me. Mom
would have loved to see you. She still can’t believe we are actually together.’ I was rambling. It was really weird that I felt nervous…why did I feel
nervous?
    ‘Maybe next time…we’ll see. Tell her I said hi
though.’ She sounded off really quiet.
    ‘Lex is everything okay? You sound off…’ she
laughed but I could tell it was completely forced. I felt my stomach tighten as
a million things ran through my mind.
    ‘I’m fine Kole…really. It is just really quiet here
and I just wish you were here.’
    So did I…
    About that time the front door came open and I looked up
to see my mother coming down the front steps walking straight for me. “Are you
talking to Lexi?” I just nodded in response.
    ‘Hey Lex…I’m going to get my things inside and get
settled and then I’ll call you…Are you sure you’re okay. I can’t help the
feeling that you’re hiding something.’ I heard her take in a deep
breath and the fact that my mother was now two feet from me with a concerned
look was a little distracting.
    “Tell Lexi I said Hi and she needs to come visit soon,” I
never had to repeat it back to Lex she heard my mom and she responded.
    ‘Tell her I said hi and I’ll talk to you later
Kole. Have a good weekend with you family really I am fine…bye’ She
hung so quickly I couldn’t even say goodbye. I fought the urge to call her
right back. Instead I hugged my mother and followed her into the house with a
lump lodged in my throat.

Twenty
Five
    (Lexi)
    I knew I did a horrible job at trying to act natural when
I talked to Kole. It was the combination of missing him and being alone because
Megan decided to go home with Radley which I refused to tell Kole. It would
only make him feel horrible about me being here by myself. I knew I should have
gone with him but it was too late now. The text messages started about two
hours ago. I couldn’t take the chance of seeing Matt which is exactly the
reason I turned down the invitation from Kole.
    Matt had no idea that Kole and I were together. I just
needed to turn my phone off but then Kole would wonder why I didn’t answer his
calls and then of course it would lead to him thinking the worst. I should have
changed my number but then I would have to admit to everyone that Matt was still
harassing me. I hated how they all hovered over me treating me like a victim so
I would just erase them like I always did.
    I fell back onto my bed and let out a deep frustrated
breath. “Chirp”, my cell phone was again indicating another incoming
message.
    ‘You can’t cry rape if you willing went upstairs
with me and you knew it was what I wanted…that is not rape. That is just regret
for