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driveway has lights along it, and as Dan heads out, Justin can see that he doesn't look back.

Sometimes You Just Know | Kate Sherwood
CHAPTER FIVE
    "Okay, just run through it one more time." Chris's enjoyment of Justin's pain is typical, and almost soothing. Almost. “So you've had a crush on this guy for a year—even though you're not actually a pre-teen girl—and you finally have the chance to get it on, and you talk him into going back to your place, which is, like, an hour of highway driving away, and when you get there, when you've finally got Mr. Perfect right where want him, you chicken out and can't seal the deal." Chris is driving Justin back to pick up his car, which, technically, is a favor, but Justin should have known it wouldn't come for free. "Was it performance anxiety? Were you afraid that it couldn't possibly be as romantic and perfect as you'd dreamed about for so long?"
    Chris shakes his head. "I think I've been pretty open-minded about your obvious sexual deviancy, but this…you want to be gay, okay, whatever… it's your dick. But I don't know if I can accept that you're such a damn pussy."
    Justin leans his head against the glass of the window and sighs. Chris likes to make speeches, and he likes to make fun of Justin. So he's pretty much in heaven right now. There's no point in trying to stop him, Justin knows from experience. It's best to just wait it out.
    "This is the con man, right? Were you afraid that he was going to lift the silverware if you let him upstairs? Oh, that's right; you don't have anything worth stealing in that shit hole." Chris sighs, and glances over at Justin with a mock-dreamy expression. "Unless you were afraid he was going to steal your heart…" Justin flinches a little, and he knows that Chris sees it because the other man is quiet for a moment. "Shit, Justin, seriously? Are you really that hung up on this guy?" Chris sounds like he's not sure if this is the funniest thing ever, or if it's actually too sad to make fun of. He seems to be waiting for a response.

"I don't know…" Justin sighs again. "I guess maybe I am. I mean, Sometimes You Just Know | Kate Sherwood
    it's…it's different, somehow." He looks out the window, and remembers the mix of apprehension and hope in Dan's real smiles. "He's…I don't know. There's something there. Something good."
    Chris is quiet for a minute. "Shit. How bad do you figure you fucked it up last night?"
Justin shakes his head. "Pretty bad, maybe. It was… he booked out of there pretty fast, and he was kinda mad."
"Yeah, no shit. You make him drive you all the way home, when you've got a perfectly good car just sitting there, and then he doesn't even get off? That's not cool, man."
Justin can feel Chris building up for another of his lectures on sexual etiquette, and he decides to make a pre-emptive strike. He hadn't told Chris the whole story of the night, but now he thinks maybe he should add a detail or two. "Well, that's not entirely true…he did get off, once at least."
Chris looks confused. "Wait, what? You said you backed out as soon as you got home…."
"Yeah, but… rest stops aren't just for resting anymore." He knows he sounds a little smug, but he can't help it.
It takes a minute to sink in. "Jesus, really? So, why'd you chicken out at home?"
"Okay, I didn't chicken out…I just didn't want to rush things."
"What rushing? If you already did it at the rest stop…"
"No, the rest stop was just blow jobs."
Chris shakes his head. "Oh, just blow jobs. Fuck, why can't I be gay? I could have just blow jobs for a long time and still be pretty damn happy." Justin thinks of Dan's mouth, his hands, and he has to agree that he'd be happy with just that for a long time too. Hell, he'd be happy with just a smile.
While Justin's been reminiscing, Chris has obviously been thinking.

Sometimes You Just Know | Kate Sherwood
"Is that… do you think he thought you'd got what you came for, and that's why you pushed him away?"
    "What?"