Free Forever Mine (Providence Series Book 1) by Mary B Moore

as I finished my rant and trying to get his arms to unlock from around me at the same time, but he wasn’t letting go.

    "You have got to be shitting me!” He growled yet again.   Seriously I didn't even know it was possible for someone to growl, but he did it perfectly.   I wonder if he had a sore throat by the end of the day?  

    I tuned back in as he said, "I'm gonna turn you around, and you're gonna listen to me.”   Since it meant that I'd be free from him, I nodded my head.   His hands moved to either side of my waist, and I was suddenly lifted and turned around so that I was straddling him before he moved up my bed to the headrest and sat up so that we were face to face.

    As I went to ask him to let me stand up or, at least, sit on the bed, he put his finger over my mouth and said, "Quiet Maya, you've had your say now let me have mine,” while looking me straight in the eyes.   Well, shit, I guess that was only fair!

    “Right, I dunno who exactly has told you what apart from what you heard today, but my past is exactly that — my past.   I can't change it.   Hearing about your past just there makes me feel sick and like I wanna go and hunt them down, so I get that this is hard, but you Maya, Jesus. I've thought of no one but you since I saw you in Cooper's that day, and that is no lie.   Then you walk through my mom's door, and I learn that you're doing my home up and its like nothing that has happened in my life is worth shit, but everything in my life from that moment onwards is worth more than everything. I've never wanted a relationship, but with you, I'm not settling for anything else.  

    “I wanted to give you time, to do this right, so I went to Jilly's tonight, so I could buy you a drink, and we could continue getting to know each other, but instead we're here, and I'm thankful for that because now I can tell you how it is.   I've never called a woman baby in my life apart from you, its never even occurred to me to call her baby or sweetheart or any other name because I never gave a fuck before you.   Does that make me sound like more of a bastard? Probably, but it's the truth - you would never be a one nighter for me, it's just not possible! And I sure as shit do not have a girlfriend - I don’t know who told you that, but they’re lying. The only girlfriend I’ve had is you.”

    I knew that my mouth was hanging open, and I so wanted to say something meaningful or, at least, question what he was saying, but all that came out was “oh!”

    "So are you going to let me prove it to you?" He asked running his fingers gently down my face and then stroking my lower lip, his eyes following the path of his finger before looking back up into my eyes.

    “Uh," is what came out of my mouth causing a smirk to curl up on his sexy mouth.   God, I'm never lost for words, why does he always do that to me?

    "Is that a yes baby?" He asked nuzzling his nose against mine tenderly.

    I took a deep breath in and then closed my eyes as I breathed out.   “Okay," I whispered, "we can try, but please don't lie to me or use me.” I opened my eyes and looked into his gorgeous gray eyes that were a beautiful deep silver with a darker gray band around them; they were so unique, so…Ren.

    "Never baby, never!” He promised before he kissed me.

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    Ren

     

    I woke up, rolled over and looked around the large space while I thought over my conversation with Maya last night;   I couldn't believe she was giving me a chance.   Ever since I turned 10 and got over the whole girls have cooties bullshit, I have never had to work for a girl.   I wasn't lying when I said to Maya that I've never had a girlfriend; even back then there were kisses behind the trees of our school, but I’d never committed.   Sure, the girl may have thought I was hers, but I always shot that shit down because I never found myself interested in someone enough to commit.   When I lost my virginity at 15, I discovered a whole new