kiss, when she was sixteen and he was heading to NYU. The year he didnâtâcouldnâtâsay goodbye to her.
âMari, thereâs something I want to clear up between us.â He took a deep breath. âIâve thought about you a lot since that last summer at Hawkâs Lake.â
The way she bit down on her bottom lip toldhim that she didnât believe him. âThen why didnât you ever call?â
âI donât know.â He ran a hand through his hair. âI guess the more time that went by, the harder it became.â
âI was so mad at you.â She met his gaze. âActually, I was mad at everyone and everything. Sixteen wasnât a fun age for me. My whole world was changing, and way too fast. And my best friend never said goodbye.â
âDammit, Mari. You were only sixteen. I was eighteen. If you want the truth, I wasâ¦scared.â
âScared? Why?â
He tried to find the words. âI was scared of my feelings for you. And you were younger than I was. You were sixteen and I was eighteen. That was a big gap back then.â He shook his head. âYou were going back to Bostonâfor good. What did I have to offer you? I had a scholarship waiting for me. You had your worldâyour society events, your family business.â
âBut you were my best friend, Brian.â
He could hear the hurt in her voice.
âAnd you were mine. Thatâs why I had to let you goâto live your life.â
She turned away, and he could see her wiping at her eyes.
âI canât believe how this still hurts me aftertwelve long years.â She turned and looked at him for what seemed like an eternity. âBut I guess I do understand. You meant well.â
âThanks, Mari.â
Everything was quiet. He could only hear the swishing sound of the oars pushing through the water. He couldnât take his eyes off Mari. Illuminated by the moonlight, she seemed ethereal, angelic. She was finally back in Hawkâs Lake. This time, he didnât want to stay away from her. âLook at all the stars.â
She was silent for a while. âYouâre right, Brian,â she whispered. âIt seems as though I can reach out and touch them.â
Her head was bent back, and he wanted to touch his lips to the curve of her neck.
âI brought some wine,â he said. âAre you in?â
âDefinitely.â
He pulled out a corkscrew from his pocket and, by the glow of a flashlight, he uncorked the wine and poured it into two plastic cups.
âA toast?â he said, holding up his cup.
Mari held up hers, too. âTo Hawkâs Lake,â she said. âThe best place in the world.â
He had the urge to sit beside her, put his arm around her and let her rest her head on his shoulder, but he didnât want her to move away.
âI know you donât think so, Brian. But thatâs because youâve always lived here. You take things for granted.â
She was quiet for a minute. âIâd like to stay here forever.â
âForever is a long time in a place like this. What would you do?â
âHonestly?â She raised an eyebrow, and he nodded. âI would really like to make pottery and sell it in the little gift shops here, and thenââ She stopped abruptly. âWell, thereâs no sense carrying on. Iâll probably have to go back.â
âSo youâve thought about it?â
âI never really stop thinking about it, but I donât want to talk about Sherwood. Not on such a beautiful night. But thanks for asking.â
She reached over and took his hand, and he took that opportunity to move next to her.
He put his arm around her and hugged her to his side, just like an old friend.
But when he smelled the hint of strawberries on her hair and caught the floral scent of her skin, it was hard to remember that they were just old friends. Or that heâd thrown