said.
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Earlier that night, heâd waited until Mr. and Mrs. Lawton were in the den watching television, then quietly made his way down the back stairs and took the bike heâd seen in the garage the other day. Then heâd walked the bike out through a side door of the garage and rode it into the night all the way across town, heading straight to the Pines, having told Tyrese to meet him there.
Tyrese had been waiting for him in front of the Pines. They decided that Jayson would sleep at Tyreseâs tonight, just calling it a sleepover. Tomorrow heâd come up with a plan and make his next move. Take back control of his life.
But first heâd wanted to chill with Tyrese, just the two of them. Talk to someone who actually knew about where he came from.
âYou know youâre like my brother,â Tyrese said when they were in the apartment. âBut even if there was room for you to live with us, itâs not like you could just go back to our school like nothing happened. Not like they wouldnât find you in a
snap
.â He smiled at his own joke.
âI wasnât asking you to do that,â Jayson said. âI just need a night to figure things out. I canât stay there.â
âDonât jump ugly with me,â Tyrese said. âBut it sounds to me like your setup there is pretty sweet.â
âBut I donât belong there! I should be with you, Shabazz, and the rest of the boys at Moreland East getting ready to win the county championship. I should be at the Jeff.â
âBut things have changed,â Tyrese said in a soft voice. âYou canât live your whole life on a basketball court. Maybe you just need to give it all a chance.â
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Now Jayson was sitting in the Lawtonsâ living room like it was his first night there all over again. Mr. and Mrs. Lawton were telling him that, as difficult as this was, for everybody, he couldnât just up and run away like that.
âYou told me that already,â Jayson said. âThat this is
normal
.â He put air quotes around ânormal.â
âYes I did,â Mrs. Lawton said.
She was wearing jeans and a T-shirt tonight, hair pulled back into a ponytail, making her look more like some young girl than a woman trying to play the role of his new mom. She even wore some pink Nike Free sneakers. She was sitting next to a table that had a sculpture of a horse that sheâd made resting on it. Sheâd told him once that she was an artist in her spare time; there were pieces of hers all around the house. But the horse, she said, was her favorite. Mr. Lawton said it was her best piece of work. Said that his wife had as much artistic ability in her as she had kindness.
âYou scared us tonight, Jayson,â Mrs. Lawton said. âWe were so worried that something might happen to you while you were off on your own.â
âDid fine on my own before you came into the picture.â
âWe care about you,â Mr. Lawton said. âAnd weâre trying our best to do right by you.â
âI donât care!â he said. âWhy canât you get that?â
âBut
we
care, Jayson,â Mrs. Lawton said. âWe care that you give yourself the chance to be happy.â
âThe only time Iâm happy in my whole life is when Iâm playing ball.â
Mr. Lawton said, âYour coach told us you didnât seem all that happy at practice today.â
âYou called him?â
âYeah, I did. Carol called your teachers to find out how the day had gone. I called your coach.â
âIâm not a five-year-old,â Jayson said.
âThen maybe, and Iâm just throwing this out there, you could think about not acting like one,â Mrs. Lawton said.
She didnât say it in a mean way, and Jayson knew it. And she was smiling as she said the words.
âWhat do you want me to do, act