couldnât leave him like this. I wanted to put my arm around him.
I got up but stopped as I heard Malitaâs feet padding on the stairs. He looked up and listened. He waited until the door creaked open, got up and walked over to her, put his arm around her shoulders and kissed her on the cheek. He led her to the chair, sat down beside her and whispered in Spanish. She nodded then they both looked at me. We sat listening to the music until it died away and the needle started clicking.
Malita left to attend to it and Fred leaned towards me again. âWhat is your greatest fear, Jack?â
I hesitated. I was sure it wasnât drowning that terrified me. I saw it. âI think Iâm frightened of losing control, of showing fear itself. Does that make sense?â
He nodded. âItâs a good question to ask people, though donât expect an honest answer. Not many have experienced real fear.â
âWhat of you, Uncle?â
He looked across at Malita, who had returned and was now brewing another pot of tea. âThat particular reservoir is empty. Thereâs a limit in each of us. I exceeded mine years ago. Iâm still full of other emotions though; especially hate for Hitler and all his beliefs. You read his book but understand that, evil as he is, he is just a servant.â
No wonder I couldnât beat him at chess. He was full of surprises. My puzzled expression must have been sufficient.
âOh, yes. Heâs the Popeâs general.â
âUncle, thatâs crazy. You donât mean that.â
âHe mean it, Yak. He think Hitler will destroy all Communist for Pope. He think Catholic big enemy of the people.â
She shrugged, in that peculiar way of hers â why argue with someone who wonât listen? She shoved the teapot at him. âHere, you drink. Keep quiet.â She looked at the clock above the dresser. âIs time Yak go.â
âBut I havenât told him about England or Spain yet.â
âGood. You save for another day. Yak think you mad old man.â She waved her hand at me then touched her finger to her lips. âYou drink tea. Then you go home.â
We supped in silence.
After she had cleared away, Malita decided that it was too late for me to catch the bus from Snow Hill and suggested that Fred take me back on his motorcycle. Iâd helped Fred rebuild the bike and knew how special it was to him, but felt brave enough to suggest that I might be allowed to borrow it to ride myself home.
âBugger me, you cheeky sod. Borrow my bike? I suppose you want my hat as well. Here, take my shoes and socks if you want ââ
Malita grabbed his arm and laughed. âYak, tiene cojones; he help mend this beast. Why no let him ride her?â
âRide her? Ride Boadicea ? Sheâll buck him off and leave him bleeding in the gutter. Heâs too young to handle a machine like that.â
âStupid man. It is you she buck off. You scared he ride her better. Yak is man now and he has cojones as big as yours.â She moved towards Fred, her hand stretched out in a claw. âPerhaps bigger.â
He edged away, keeping the kitchen table between them. âRight, but remember the history of this bike.â He sounded very concerned.
âYak, he is stupid. He believe silly story when he buy this bike of bits. Is nothing wrong with bike â just man who ride it.â
Though Iâd longed to, Iâd never asked to ride Boadicea before and was somewhat deflated by uncleâs dismissive response.
âItâs okay, Malita, Uncle is right. Itâs better if I donât. Iâll walk.â
Fred dodged round the table, clasped my shoulders and pulled me towards the door. âWhy do I listen to her? You wouldnât ask unless you were sure, would you?â
âNo, I wouldnât. I know every bit of her, from her Norton box, through her Castle forks, to her JAP heart. Iâve polished