of ten. When he skimmed over the other titles, his gaze lighting upon War and Peace, questions flooded Zacharyâs mind. How smart was his child? How was he gonna relate to him? The fact heâd missed the first ten years struck him like a punch to the gut. He was out of step with his son and didnât know if they would ever have anything in common. His one chance to be a father.
âSo you really enjoy math?â Heâd hated the subject in school.
âYes, sir. It comes easy to me.â
Zachary heard the creak of the bed as Jordan stood. He slipped a look toward her, hoping she would leave him alone with Nicholas, but she remained nearby. The feel of her gaze on him made him clutch his hands together. âWhat donât you like?â
âReally not much. I guess writing. But I love to read, especially history and biographies. You can learn so much when you read about a famous person.â
âWhat was the last book you read?â Zachary couldnât remember the last one heâd readâhad to be years ago.
âA six-volume series by Winston Churchill concerning World War II. Next I want to read about Hitler to get a better sense of what happened at that time.â
Zacharyâs mouth hung open. Quickly he snapped it closed. I should have seen the resemblance. Figured it out. But I never thought Jordan would keep something like that from me. The anger, just below the surface, surged to the foreground along with self-doubt. Iâm so not prepared to be a father.
âI find itâs necessary to read both sides of an issue or topic. Donât you think?â
âYeah. What about you, Jordan?â Zachary swung his attention toward the woman whoâd not readied him for this moment. Heâd enjoyed history in school while Jordan hadnât. Maybe he could find a common bond with his son after all. He could go to the bookstore, find some books on World War II.
âSure, both sides are important.â
The uncomfortable look on her face didnât vindicate him. For his sonâs sake he would be tied to Jordan, and he needed to make this work, somehow.
âMom, what are we having for dinner?â
âDinner? Uhâ¦â Her mouth twisted as she shot a glance toward the door. âI guess I can fix some sandwiches.â
âWill you stay for dinner?â His son clicked off the computer.
Zachary didnât know if he could sit at a table with Jordan and act as if everything would be okay. It wouldnât be. And yet the eagerness in Nicholasâs expression prompted him to say, âYeah, that sounds nice.â
âFine. Why donât you come help me?â Jordan stared right at Zachary.
âMy idea of fixing a meal is opening a can of soup.â
She blew a breath out, her gaze darting between Zachary and the doorway. âIt shouldnât take me five minutes. Nicholas, make sure you wash up.â
After she hurried from the room, Nicholas checked his watch. âSheâll probably have it done in four.â
âWhy do you say that?â Zachary asked, amused for the first time that day.
âSheâs afraid to leave us alone.â
âVery perceptive.â
âNot really. Sheâs just very obvious. What happened with you and Mom?â
It was his turn to squirm. âYou donât pull any punches. How old are you?â He knew, but the question just slipped out because the more he was around his son the older he seemed.
âTen but sometimes I feel a lot older. I was sick a lot when I was younger and I spent a lot of time reading books. At least with them I could go places, do things I couldnât otherwise. Thatâs what those pins on the map represent. Blue are my first choices of where I want to go. Red are the back-up ones.â
Suddenly Zachary looked hard at his son. He hadnât hada chance to be a boy. Maybe that was what he could do for his son. Teach him to play, have fun.
Carrie Jones, Steven E. Wedel