âThe tide has gone over it. I will say what you want me to say. But there are still some things that are beautiful.â
Annabelle stepped up the small wooden railing that separated us from the grass, and as she swung herself over she became for a moment like a dancer on her toes. âBeginnings are never beautiful,â she said.
âWhat you want,â I said, âis a place that has died many years ago, a place in which there is no movement and no meaning except that which exists in a fossil or a stone.â
âAnd is there such a place?â Peter said.
âI believe so.â
âWhere?â
âI have lived in one. I have left it. It is an island in the south. There is nothing living except the cactus and the crabs, and the people are only shadows on the faces of the rocks.â
âAnd you left it?â Peter said; âWhy?â
âBecause it was too old,â I said. âIt was too old and too dead and too dry. Our world may be ageing, but a grave like that is uncanny. It is too close to the sun. The sun is not the God of lifeâthat is nonsense. The sun is the God of eternity. One cannot live under a sky so old.â
âRain is the God of life,â Marius said, ârain and dampness and softness and dew.â
âOf which there was none. Have you ever lived in a place in which the only softness is rotten? You find it strange. You become frightened of touching things in case your finger goes through.â
âYou need not touch things,â Peter said. âYou need only look. You cannot touch beauty, it must always be apart from you. And it must be hard so that it will remain apart from you and you may not be tempted to stroke it.â
âThat is the old beauty,â Marius said, âthe beauty that is dead.â
âThen I want it!â Peter said.
âThe new beauty,â Marius said, âis the sound of a swanâs wing and the beginning of fear.â
âLook!â Annabelle said. âLook! There is a shooting star!â Some million miles beyond her pointing finger a star shed out its light some million years ago and vanished.
âThere are always shooting stars,â Peter said. âWhenever you look into the sky you see one. That is why people think them so exceptional.â
We walked around the square with our collars turned up around our ears while Annabelle, in front of us, swung her coat down from her naked shoulder and swept it about on the ground at her feet sending little swirls of leaves wandering wearily into the darkness.
After a silence Peter said, âTell me more about your island.â
âThe only things living,â I said, âare in the sea. Beneath the water blue and gold fish swim among the coral, and you cannot touch them. The island itself is like a sphinx in the desert, and the natives who come there come only by day and by night it is silent.â
âAnd do they speak?â Peter said.
âThey shout and they laugh,â I said, âbut I do not remember them as speaking.â
âOh Marius,â Peter said, âlet us go to where they only shout and laugh and where the land is like a sphinx in the sea!â
âWe could not shout,â Marius said. âAnd I think that to live on a sphinx would be sacrilege.â
âBut you love sacrilege!â Peter said. âTo you sacrilege is so beautiful!â
Marius frowned and said nothing.
âYou could be a sphinx,â Peter said.
We stopped beside the statue. âOne cannot live in eternity,â Marius said. âOne can only live in memory of it. I know this island. It is we who are too old for it.â
âOlder than the sphinx?â
âOlder than palm trees in the desert. Once the world was a garden and we sat by water and now it is no longer.â
âIt is a desert?â
âExcept by imagination.â
âWe could find new springs.â
âThe same