game to Colin Botha and was happily eating beans-ân-franks and reading A Game of Thrones when Duncan went Joffrey on us.
âGetchie, youâre against Philip.â
âI played my game.â
âAnd youâll play another, or move your dead ass out of here.â
Lunches at Katz are long. Not like my other schools, where they ram you through in twenty minutes, barely enough time to inhale a gummy slice of pizza and spill your milk. At Katz, lunch is a full period. I live for the hour of peace. Lose a game of chess, then relax amid the tip-tap of pieces moving on boards and the occasional murmur. âGood move.â âYou really want to do that?â âCheck.â Even an ejaculation of chess-thusiasm was no more disruptive than wind scattering leaves. It was like living inside the Golf Channel.
So I had no interest in Duncanâs decrees. But when I hesitated, he added the coup de grace . âYour choice, Getchie. Play Philip, or go eat with the plebs.â
Classy.
I put my book down and sat at one of the empty seats Duncan indicated next to the window. It was an April afternoon, two months after my arrival at Katz. Outside, drizzle fell with its usual resolve. Inside, Philip paced in the cross-shaped space between four tables, chewing carrots and spitting vegetable matter as he studied the boards before him. I hid a pawn in each hand, black and white, and held them out for Philip to choose, but he brushed me off. âShut up. Just play white.â
Everyone was being an asshole that day.
Courtney, Mrs. Anâs daughter, got drafted as well, but unlike me, she actually gave a damn. I pushed a pawn at random, then another the instant Philip responded. Each time he moved I moved. With four games going, it would take him a minute to get back to me, but I moved again before he could turn away.
I could tell he was getting annoyed, but too bad. Him and me both. Fucking Duncan. I threw pieces around the board, barely aware if the moves were even legal. Philip wasnât used to opponents who cared so little about the outcome. His breath whistled past his teeth every time I moved. Across from me, Colin Bothaâclub noob but with a strong U.S. Chess Federation rating and my bet for first to knock Philip off his throneâwas putting up a serious fight. Courtney and Duncan were holding their own and keeping Philip from giving me his full attention.
Which could explain what happened.
I might not have noticed if I wasnât in particular need of quiet at that moment. Every sound rattled in my ears, from the tap of the felt-footed pieces to the muted chatter trickling in from the Commons. Annoyed, I tossed a knight into Philipâs back row, which made no sense even to me. Philip responded with the irritation of a man whoâd discovered a pubic hair in his hamburger. He killed the knight with his queen. In the second after he lifted his hand, even as I was reaching for another piece to push, he sucked in a quick breath, barely audible. But I heard it. And I paused.
Heâd made a mistake.
Philip didnât make mistakes. Not on the chessboard. I looked up at him but he was already turning away, munching carrots and trying to cover. Maybe he thought it didnât matter, that I would never see what heâd given me. Whatever he thought, I felt something new and different: a tickle behind my eyes, a sudden need. I gazed at Duncan, intent on his own board. Light reflected off the sheen of sweat on his upper lipâso desperate to have what Philip had given me. A chance . I sat back and, for the first time since Mad Maddie, tried to win a game of chess.
I studied the board for fifteen minutes to be absolutely sure. Long enough for Philip to knock off the other three, first Duncan, then Botha. When Courtney resigned, Philip turned to me. âWell?â His attitude was impatient, but I sensed concern behind it. He knew I knewâthe long delay since my last move