awesome.â
She smiles at him. âIâm glad I did too. Here, this is me.â They stop in front of her letter box. âThanks for inviting me out. It was great.â
âNo worries.â He makes to leave and then turns back. âTess?â
He bends down to kiss her. She canât help but kiss him back.
âYouâre so tiny,â he says admiringly.
She nods, her breath taken away by his kiss. He is so hot and it sounds like heâs inviting her out again. Despite feeling guilty, she canât wait.
Miss McLoughlin hands back her paper. âIâd like to see you at the end of class,â she says softly. Terror grips Tessâs gut. Why? She scans the paper. Itâs a C. Embarrassed, she shoves it into her file.
At the end of the lesson she stays at her desk. Miss McLoughlin sits on the one in front. âAre you disappointed with that mark, Tess?â
Tess nods but canât look up. Disappointed isnât the half of it. Just when things were going wellâtennis and Jordan, her mum and dad, Ned sensing her need for space and giving it to her. And now this. A fail. She canât bear it. Why canât everything be perfect?
âIâm worried that your analysis isnât as strong as it used to be,â Miss McLoughlin says. âYou seem to have lost the edge you used to have.â
The shame burns deep inside her.
âAre you too busy doing other things?â
Tess canât speak for the humiliation she feels. âNo,â she begins, âI thought I did well on this topic.â
âItâs not bad,â her teacher says gently, âbut not your usual calibre. I can go through it with you if you like.â
Tess shakes her head. âThanks, but Iâve got tennis, so I canât hang around.â
At tennis she canât concentrate on the ball and misses easy shots. Jordan watches her from the sidelines, puzzled. âHey,â he says after her gameâa 3â0 lossââwhatâs going on? You okay?â
She nods. âJust off today.â
âCanât be a winner every time,â he says, putting an arm around her. âComing out?â
âI canât tonight. Iâve gotta get home.â
He looks disappointed.
âSorry, next time, I promise.â
He smiles, looks like he wants to kiss her, but she pulls away. Sheâs sure she senses Ned lurking around.
On her way home she is dejected and let down. How could she have done that to herself? Getting a C gradeâshe canât remember the last time she scored so badly. And the tennis. Total loser. And this thing with Jordanâwhat about Ned, the one who truly loves her? She totally hates herself.
She hears him coming up behind, and he drops in next to her. Heâs quiet for a while. She glances at him but says nothing. Finally he speaks.
âSo whatâs happening? Iâve stayed away. Waited for you to talk to me. How come you donât speak to me anymore?â
She shrugs; she doesnât know what to say.
âWe used to talk about everything. It feels like you donât trust me anymore. Not good enough for you and your tennis mates, then?â He sounds hurt.
She looks at him and canât bear the pain she hears in his voice âNo, itâs not that. Iâve just been doing other stuff.â
âSaw you with that guy. Whatâs that about? Should I be jealous?â
Heâs getting angry. She doesnât want him to get mad. When he gets mad he gets vicious.
âNo, Ned,â she lies, instantly trying to placate him. âHeâs my tennis partner, thatâs all. Nothingâs happening.â
âI couldnât stand it if you left me, Tess. You mean too much to me. You know that. I will love you more than anyone else. Ever.â
The fervour in his voice frightens her. He makes it sound like a death pact.
âNobody, nothing in this whole world could ever take your
Landon Dixon, Giselle Renarde, Beverly Langland