laughed a little, âI sure donât feel like it right now, but someday I will. We all will.â
âNo, you wonât!â I said angrily. âYouâve got to wait till I grow up! Youâll live to be a hundred years old! Iâll be a painter in Paris, France, and youâll come and live with me.â
âWhat are you going to do with a hundred-year-old woman dragginâ around after you?â Grandma asked.
âYou could wear a beret,â I said, picturing it all in my mind, âand weâd go to the top of the Eiffel Tower and drink wine.â
âNow, donât talk nonsense,â Grandma said, gently. âBesides, I wouldnât want to live to be a hundred.â
âI donât want you to die!â
âWe never want to lose the people we love,â Grandma said quietly. âBut we have to remember the good things about them, and keep those memories, and thatâs what you have to do with Mr. Rehnquist, just the way you remember the things I told you about your mother.â
âBut I never knew my mother,â I said. âIâve never known anybody who died before.â
âI know, Addie, I know.â
âIâm scared, Grandma. I just donât see why anyone has to die.â
She came over to me and put her arms around me.
âAddie, I felt just that way when your Grandpa died. I thought I couldnât face another day knowing I wouldnât see him. And then one day, someone read something to me. It said, âWhen people leave on a boat, you say, âThere they go.â But on the other side of the horizon, theyâre saying, âHere they come.â â I thought ⦠it must be something like that, and I was able to let Grandpa go.â
I thought about what she said for a moment, and it seemed to make sense to me. I imagined Mr. Rehnquist meeting his old friend Pearlie Blake again, and what had happened didnât seem quite so terrible.
âDo you think I should go to Mr. Rehnquistâs funeral?â I asked.
âI think that would be a very nice thing to do,â said Grandma.
âI wonât know what to do.â
âWhy, you donât have to do anything,â she said. âTell you what, Iâll go with you.â
âOh, would you, Grandma? What if Dad finds out about it?â
âNever you mind,â she said, hugging me close. âIâll take care of that.â
âI canât believe Iâll never see Mr. Rehnquist again.â
âYou made him happy,â she said. âLike youâve made me happy. Remember that, always remember that.â
I cried then, and Grandma held me close.
Chapter Eleven
Mr. rehnquistâs funeral was that Saturday, and while Dad was busy doing some work on his pickup, Grandma and I quietly got dressed and left for the funeral parlor without telling him. I had on my best church dress, which was yellow with brown and white rickrack trim, my black patent leather Mary Janes with heavy white socks, and my hat, a navy blue sailor with a long ribbon down the back. Grandma wore her black dress she always wore to funerals, and her flat black hat with the pink rose on the side. I tied a brown ribbon on the fall bouquet I had made those weeks ago for Grandma and took it along for Mr. Rehnquist.
We set off down the street to Jensenâs Funeral Home, and when we got there, we saw the hearse drawn up outside waiting. When we got inside, Mr. Jensen was there at the door to give us a Memorial Programme, and to help us sign the register. I wrote in my best penmanship, and noticed that there were no other names above ours. We were the first ones there, and Mr. Jensenâs assistant ushered us in. Grandma and I sat in the fourth row of the little chapel. We never liked to sit right in the front row at church either, but we always sat close enough so Grandma could hear well.
This was the first funeral I had ever been to. I looked