you. When do you come home?â he asked.
âI donât know for certain. Itâll still be a couple of months yet. Probably early April,â she answered his question without knowing why.
âGood. Iâll still be around.â She could almost hear the smile in his voice. âIâll be waiting for you, Haley Cooper.â
âGood-bye, Reid.â Haley ended the call feeling dazed and confused.
His doggedness was flattering. No one had ever shown that kind of interest in her before, but she resented how his words had roused her own feelings of self-pity and loneliness. She also hated that he made her feel unsure of Jeffrey, a man whoâd offered nothing but encouragement and support. Reid, on the other hand, made her question almost everything she believed in.
She still couldnât deny her attraction to Reid, but it could never be enough to overcome their incompatibility. Nevertheless, late that night, in the darkest and loneliest hours, it wasnât thoughts of Jeffrey, but a tall cowboy with sky-blue eyes that heated her body and haunted her dreams.
* * *
Dubois, Wyoming, the same night
Reid had stepped outside to escape the sudden crushing sensation in his chest. Heâd never suffered claustrophobia before, but the music, the laughter, the smells, and the questions he wasnât ready to answer were like sensory overload. His family all just carried on like normal, but he couldnât. He almost wished he hadnât come home. It was just too much, too soon after his deployment.
He sucked in a breath, filling his lungs with frosty air and then shut his eyes in a silent prayer for all the guys whoâd never see another Christmas. Bravo company had arrived in Kuwait with 185 men; a quarter of them would never return to their families. His platoon had been among those hit the hardest. Theyâd accomplished their mission but had paid a heavy price in blood.
He took a long swig of his beer.
A moment later heâd dialed his phone. He hadnât even thought about it. Heâd just wanted to hear her voice. The conversation was short, even a bit terse. Heâd felt her resistance about seeing him again, but in the end she hadnât actually said no. He pocketed his phone with a smile.
âHey you! The partyâs inside.â Tonya sat down beside him, drink in hand. She rested the other one on his thigh. Her touch and voice were light, as if testing the waters.
He tensed slightly but couldnât think of a tactful way to get away from her.
âWho was that on the phone?â she asked.
âA friend.â He decided just to play it cool. Tonya wasnât dumb. Sheâd eventually get the hint.
Her black brows arched, but she didnât press that line of questioning. Instead, she tilted her head skyward and released a long sigh. âI love the cold weather, donât you? It lights up the night. The sky seems darker, and the stars more intense. And I love the snow too, walking in it, skiing on it, and even catching the flakes on my tongue. Did you miss it much, Reid?â
âYes, I did. I hate the desert.â
âThen why did you go? Your familyâs outfitting business is doing well. Better than well. Thereâs a whole new lot of oil barons coming in from the Dakotas.â
âIâm doing what I was called to do. If you donât understand that by now, you never will.â
She shrugged. âI was hoping youâd be back for Christmas. We really need to talk, Reid.â
âThat so? Then why didnât you just text me?â
âOuch.â She winced. âIâm sorry about that. More than I can say, Reid, but I just didnât know how else to break it off. I was afraid that if I called you, I wouldnât be able to do it, and that wouldnât have been fair to either of us.â
âAt least it was clean. Iâll give you that much,â he replied with a dry laugh.
Although it had