Free Backstage Dirty (The Savage Light Rockers #1) by Jenika Snow

and cried out, he finally let himself go. He leaned forward, bracing his hands on the floor beside her head, and grunted and groaned as he came harder than he ever had in the last five years. His muscles hurt from how hard he was jerking as he came, and when the pleasure receded and he was able to breathe again, he opened his eyes and saw Tanner staring up at him. Without thinking, because all he wanted to do was kiss her, Jacks did exactly that. With his cock softening inside of her, and their tongues pressing back and forth against each other, he let a contented sigh leave him.
    “God, that was…”
    When she didn’t finish her sentence he pulled back and looked into her grey eyes. “Yeah, that was pretty fuckin’ wild.”
    She nodded and licked her lips. Leaning down and kissing her once more, he pulled out of her with a grunt of disappointment, and stood. Holding his hand out for her he helped her stand, and immediately pulled her in so her chest was pressed to his. And as impossible as it was, his dick started getting semi-hard at the feel of her breasts moving against him. She was soft where he was hard, and that was the perfect combination for him. He liked her curves, loved that he could run his hands all over her body, because she allowed him that pleasure.
    “What does this mean, Jacks?” She pulled back only enough that she could look into his face.
    He knew what he wanted it to mean, but despite knowing each other their whole lives, too many years had passed for things to just be easily forgotten, no matter how much he wanted that. One night of incredible sex couldn’t just make it seem like they were back in high school. Jacks didn’t want to rush her into what he ultimately wanted: a relationship.
    “What do you want it to mean?” Waiting for her to answer was a new form of torture, but she didn’t shy away, didn’t avert her gaze, and for that he had a bit of hope that she wouldn’t tell him that this was a nice fuck but that it was nothing more than that.
    “I’d like it to mean that I won’t have to wait until you’re in Brookstone again.”
    Her words caught him off guard slightly, and he felt his heart start to beat hard and fast.
    She bit her lip , and he reached out and pulled the flesh out from under her straight white teeth. “But I am also realistic.” She didn’t allow him time to respond. “You’re this megastar, and I am this unemployed graphic artist living with my parents again.” She stepped away, and the few seconds of silence that filled the air had a plethora of emotion covering her face. “You’ll be leaving to go back on tour, Jacks. A long distance relationship—if that is even what we are talking about—wouldn’t work.”
    He didn’t need to hear the worry about the hundred other things that were moving through that pretty little head of hers: cheating, parties, and being forgotten. But Jacks would never betray her in any way, and he hoped she would have known that after growing up with him. Then again, he also reminded himself that they weren’t kids anymore, and that the lifestyle he now lived was not something everyone could get used to. He heard her swallow, but when she stepped away he didn’t try to keep her close. She didn’t say anything else, but he noticed she was searching the ground. When she spotted her clothes she quickly put them on. Watching her dress, seeing her bend over to pull on her panties and pants should have had his cock at full attention, but the air around them was strange now, and any kind of arousal had vanished as soon as she had turned from him
    “ Look at me, Tanner.” She had her pants and bra on now, and when she turned and faced him he could tell she was guarding her expression. “We were all good just a second ago when I was deep inside of you.” He loved that her cheeks turned pink once more, but he hadn’t said that to embarrass her. He had known that being with her sexually again wouldn’t have made everything all